After 19 years of bipolar, and 17 consecutive months of medication adjustments, I finally have a drug "cocktail" that is (currently) managing ALL of my mental health diagnoses.
I'm experiencing the "oddest" things. Like being happy without being hypomanic. To have a bad day - but not be depressed. I know that it's unlikely that this medication cocktail is a complete or permanent solution. I am grateful for every "normal" day that I have now.
I never expected this would happen. I was frustrated with yet another medication. I thought it wouldn't make a difference. Then 2 days after getting up to this dose, I stopped having symptoms. I thought it was a placebo effect. I thought my mind was playing tricks on me. ...Until I got a letter from my Dr. (after he got results of my bloodwork) that my very low dose of lithium actually was a therapeutic dose.
There IS hope. Never stop fighting this disease. You can't see it now, but sometime you'll be on the other side and impossibly thankful that you are there.