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Posted 5/9/2011 5:10 AM (GMT 0)
It's been a while since I have posted. I have since been dx with borderline personality disorder aswell as Bipolar. Does anyone else suffer from both? I am going into a hypo manic state right now and I am afraid that the out come is going to be very bad!

I have all but given up on paying bills. To many! I am blowing money on stupid things and then I worry for about a half a min and then move on to the next thing I am going to buy.

I am not eating either! I have gone out to eat several time and have brought the left overs home. I NEVER bring left overs home! I have lost 36 LBS in the last few months but about 5-7lbs in the last 2 weeks. That is a sure sighn.

I want to cheat on my husband. I have never wanted to do this but, this time I do. I am not interested in sex with him. I want something exciting! Something that will make me feel nasty and dirty! Sounds so stupid but that is what I want. I have not looked or tryed but thats what I want.

Next is I have to listen to the same song over and over and over again. It is driving me nuts but I just have to.

Sleep? What is that? Do I really need sleep? I know the answer to this question and it is yes and yes. I just can"t do it. I try but I just can not get there. I am changing pdr so I have no one to talk to about this that can do a drug change. My t is out of town untill Thursday so I am kinda stuck there too.

I want to tell my husband to be on his gaurd because this maybe the worst one yet. I know the symtoms I have been dealing with this for a long time but, I am scared that I am going to get him worked up and it may end up to be nothing. I am sure it is something big though. Do u know when a big one is comming on? I have been right up to this point.

Any suggestions on how to deal untill my t comes back? I don't want to end up in the hospital over this. Is this all bipolar in your opinion? I need help because this is scaring me to death that I may do something really stupid. The money thing is going to be a problem if I don't stop now and it is so hard! Please some advice!

SLZ

Posted 5/9/2011 5:35 AM (GMT 0)
Listen, just try to calm down. Don't go out at night alone to a bar or club. You're starting into a manic phase & you might get involved in risky sex that will hurt you & your husband. It's not worth it. I've had about 3 chances to sleep with other women & I'm so glad I didn't. I don't have to live with regret & my marriage still has some stability.
So here's my advice: stay home right now! wait until your doctor is available. Go for a walk in the morning. Talk to your husband about this. Ask him just to hold you, watch a movie on the couch with him even if you don't want to. Read a book, anything. I wouldn't drive anywhere unless its to the grocery store or something simple.. stay away from the mall!
See my point? Distance yourself away from temptation (money, stores, cheating, going out, etc) until you either get stable or see your doc.
I hope this helps, it's the best advice I can give.
Posted 5/9/2011 5:56 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks Tommy, I have or will not go to those places! I don't even feel good enough about myself to go to a bar or club and I don't drink so thats a plus. I know this is going to pass it is the waiting part that is the hardest. Thanks for listening and giving what advice you can.

SLZ
Posted 5/9/2011 1:03 PM (GMT 0)
Yes, hun. I agree. Can you make yourself do 1 "smart" thing every day? Like pay 1 bill. Or skip 1 shopping trip. Or eat 1 meal. Or take 1 nap.

Take time to slow yourself down. Hypomania and mania are scary. Be safe!
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