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I exhibited symptoms back from my late teens. I am now in my 50's, and am relatively stable. What is normal? I have lost many jobs due to my swings. I am BP2 with rapid cycles. Rare for a man, but it does happen.

I get angry at something, is it a hypo? I get sad, is it a depression? I live in constant fear something will go wrong. I am not sure about triggers.

I had a lawn mowing business and was doing pretty well. I ran a red light and t boned a poor lady, hurt her. She is doing better but has been a long recovery for her. Totaled truck, trailer, and most of my equipment. Went over the top. Ended up in jail then the hospital for an extended stay. I had thought I was normal during my mowing, but all came apart with a major stress incidence.


What is normal?

I had a bad bipolar episode a couple of weeks ago and ended up in the hospital for a bit. I was taking my meds, going to couseling, and bam! it hit so suddenly! Scary stuff.

Trying to be more aware of my trigger behavior (and hoping that will help me keep stable.