grief vs depression

I am trying to determine the difference between grief and depression. I know that it will take a while to mourn my mothers passing. I cried all the way through my shower last night. Kept crying.....called my 19yo daughter to my room, but really she doesn't know what to do with me. And I think that it is hard on her to see me so upset.

Went to the Dr this am. Changes over the Seroquel XR and upped my Lithium 1500mg. She wants to see me weekly because of the self harm thoughts. I don't want to go the DR EVERY week. Next week I think that I will just lie. Hopefully I can just keep white knuckling until the thoughts go away.

I really don't want to talk to any of my extended family. (brothers and sister) I just want to be alone in my tears and sadness.

thanks for listening. I am glad I found this forum.

Thanks, Jamiee. I haven't really come up with any great coping techniques yet. I try the ice in the hands and on the face. That works ok, I just need to put it into effect sooner than later, hence the white knuckling.

 

 There are lots of coping skills that may or may not work for you. But grief will just take the time it will take, you cant rush it, you cant go around it, you have to accept it and work thru it. 

 

    I have found buddism, and acceptance.  I accept that i will make mistakes, that so will others, that i will accept that i am human with a serious problem. Acceptance is the path to happiness. Look at any dog, they accept what the world gives them, and dont spend time wishing for things to be different from what they are.

   Just give the grief time to run its natural course.

  Good luck Bill