Posted 1/27/2012 11:01 PM (GMT 0)
I've reduced my lithium from 900mg SR to 500mg regular. I now know what day it is and what my name is but am being viewed as non compliant. At least that is what I think is happening. I was a bit hurt the other day when I was making perfect sense explaining how I had split my doses and the benefit from that, and she cut me off, saying I wasn't making sense. Yes, I was in a shopping centre with bad mobile reception, but I was most definitely making sense. Not a biggy but shows a difference in perspective - and I do have a compliant, "good little girl" side of me wanting approval, and I don't like being branded something I am not. That said, I will always put my health before blind compliance. Whether she likes it or not, there is most definitely a merry dance between seroquel and my antidepressants, getting to sleep and waking up, fatigue, delirium. She might like my dose to stay the same each day but I have a very fine dance between managing numerous illnesses and their very powerful medication. I know intimately what each drug does and what effect each dose has in conjunction with the other drugs. I want the autonomy I need to keep myself in the best health I possibly can be in.