I'm wondering if anyone else has had such a sudden dramatic change (for the better I think) in mood. Or lack of mood I guess. After an absolutely horrible weekend, so awful that I had my first cigarette in 3 years, I woke up monday morning calm. I mean CALM. No anxiety, fear, pain but no real happiness or good feelings either. Now I've had episodes where I felt I had taken a step back from the world and watched from a distance before, but this is not the same. It's like a wall has come down between me and the world. I can fully function. Better than I have since the depression rocked my world in late Jan in fact. The house is cleaner than it's been in months. Laundry is caught up. Abounding in energy, but this doesn't feel like a manic phase. There is no emotion involved here at all. I feel like a blank slate. Like nothing is really important. Mechanical.
It's almost like I overloaded over the weekend and shorted something out in my head. Even my appetite has disappeared entirely. I'm not complaining, considering all the anxiety I've dealt with recently, this is a welcome reprieve. I wouldn't mind staying this way. Just a little puzzled at the suddenness of it.