confused, not sure what to do

okay new member but I joined to ask you opinions since my family won't

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder when I was ypunger but my family took me off the pills at the time and the whole time I had no idea that I had bipolar or what pills I was taking since no one would tell me and when I stopped I seemed fine, I did rage and attack people but since I was a kid they just acted like I was only an angry child,
I've always seen things off the the side of my vision and it is usually only briefly and my family would tell me that was nothing too I didn't know about anything until my grandmother told me recently, I still don't know what type but whatever. I used to take risperidal they were yellow-peachish almost orange I'm not sure if the colour means anything and lately I've been getting worse i'm getting angry more for no reason yelling at people accusing them of stuff and then nothing I just don't care about anything, i don't know if I should talk to anyone but my family is determined to deny any issue that I have.

It's not unusual for family's to deny mental illness. It's often seen as a stain on the family as a whole. My family also wanted to deny it. But I stuck to my guns and they finally accepted it.

Getting on good meds will help with the rages. I used to have horrible rages, now no longer. They are still inside me, I just have much better control of them now.

Meds will also help you understand how normal actually feels. Once you understand that, you can then understand how to live your life better.

Bill

My family didn't fully accept it until they saw how much better off I am on meds. It took my Dad a looooong time.

I'm sure a Dr. will want to try meds first. There are quite a few to choose from and it can take a while to get it right, plus frequent adjustments to keep them right. Good luck with your Dr. Let us know how it goes!