Hi! I'm brand new here and I just need some support. It's 4am now and I haven't slept. I am on disability, and because of some new rules re: SSD, there is now a deductible (sp?) of over $500.00/mo for my prescritions, my psychiatrist and theapist. I haven't seen them or taken my meds in two months. I am stuggling with my BPD in that I am now depressed again and can't sleep at night but sleep all day. I am so sad and there is no hope in sight. I am at the end of my rope financially, and spiritually. I went on an interview to do some volunteer work, but now I'm not sure I can go thru with it. I don't even have the gas money to get to the hospital for the work. I'm sad, depressed, feeling hopeless and helpless all over again. The meds were a Godsend; they kept me stable for almost a year. I've been on many meds in the past, had six ECT treatments, but this current round of meds (Lamictal, Abilify, Zoloft and Klonopin) really had me feeling well! I have been on SSD for going on a year, can't find a job, now not sure I could keep one anyway. Sorry for the rant; I don't know where else I can talk about
this and get feedback.
Thanks for reading -
Jean