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Hi, I was just diagnosed this week with bipolar disorder and after a lengthy discussion with both my primary doctor and a Psychiatrist we have traced symptoms and patterns going back the better part of 30 years. I am really kind of freaked out by the whole thing because it's now been diagnosed as my live-in girlfriend just broke the news to me recently that she wants space from me because of the way I've behaved over the paat few months. I am assuming that my relationship problems are definately in part because of my bipolar, but I am also guessing that the issues I'd been feeling with the relationship ha e also been a trigger to me vetting so bad the past few months. I guess what I am wondering is, is this the kind of thing I have to look forward to reliving over and over? I am not yet on meds because were wajting for some test reaults, but for the past week, I have been, cycling between crazy ups and downs throughout the day and its affecting everything around me. I really cant take anymore of this because I dont seem to be able to control my outbursts which become directed toward the friends and loved ones that mean so much to me.

Hi Cxpoet, the only thing that has changed is you have a name for the problems you have been experiencing. I know it sounds scary at first, but now you have an answer.
When someone finally firgured out what was going on with me I cried and then wore a stupid smile for a week. For me life and peace began after the mood stabliizer. I had been on anti-depressants for about 15 years and that is not something to give someone with BP without a modd stabilizer! I bounced off the walls! Now I have balance. You will be able to find it too. Never stop taking you meds without consulting your PDOC first. Let us know how it goes.