Accepting illness

I keep working towards this and maybe one day I might be able to achieve it. Just letting the sick days wash over me is difficult when the symptoms are intense. It's hard to be so unwell and keep connections. I tend to be rejected as bipolar or attract people much weaker than me because their life is comparably easy. Lonely weekend this weekend; fatigue, insomnia, low mood. Just watching tv in bed as a way to distract.

Try going on the new directions website http://www.newdirectionsdelaware.org/ they suggest 9 steps for wellness which I personally think really work. I will say a prayer for you Living Well that your spirits will be lifted and that you will find some purpose in your life everyday to greet the day with hope that it will bring you some happiness. We all need to hang onto some hope and remember that God dwells in each of us and loves us all equally even if it doesn't always feel that way, you must have faith that it is true.

Much Love,
Bipolar Lady

Had a triple whammy ptsd episode in the 24 hours up to last night. Now I need take it easy for a week. I've upped my anti-depressants and my mood-stabilisers to try to help the post-ptsd depression. New pdoc tomorrow and $90 out of my disability pension for the privilege of being disabled. Australia is moving away from universal care because privatisation of health proved so successful in America. Note my sarcasm. It's just a convenient way of euthanising the poor who pay the price for the rich being rich, as if we are somehow worthless because we have an illness and don't rip the guts out of the economy like the rich do.

Yes Audi,
We often get confused between "states" and "normal emotion".
We can somehow try to normalise depression and anxiety when they are not normal. They are symptoms of physical brain illness. Sadness is a normal emotion, fear is a normal emotion, not depression and anxiety.
I think the term "mental illness" can be misleading as it can infer that it is "all in our heads" or "purely psychology related" when nothing can be further from the truth.
Depression, Bipolar are physical illnesses. They not only create artificial "mood" states they also create enormous cognitive and other physical symptom.
Really how can conditions that put out the sleep/wake cycle, interfere with appetite and digestion, can physically totally debilitate you or give you super-human strength and energy, can play so much havoc with memory or create moments of "Einstein"ism be not regarded as a physical illness, I will never know!!!
Neurological conditions like epilepsy, parkinson's are not dismissed as "in someone's head" and illnesses that create mood, mind and physical effects from brain chemistry imbalance needs to be given just as much respect and status.