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Posted 8/15/2005 10:54 PM (GMT 0)
   Hellooooooooooooooooooooo to everyone. Okay, I would of been on like three days ago, my computer was done. Then my internet was not running right, so I had to have a guy come out and look at it. I have high speed internet service and my modem was bad, geez! So anyways, it was all free , so :-) ! So I will catch up on all the new threads and I did happen to read  that PATTI got a PDOC , smiling in Michigan. tongue I am so happy that you found one! Great news that Kevin is in the house, ha ha . That just read funny to me. Anyways, had a few problems, made a few accusations, had one bad drinking day oops...... I am gonna hear about that one ! Anyways other than that I think I am doing pretty well. I think when I see the doc at the end of the month I will ask for an increase in my wellbutrin, stay the same with my topamax and I think I should be okay! Can anyone tell I am a little on the manic side today, it's been awhile. Did go shopping today to, for my daughter's new clothes, it wasn't bad, although if I had more I could of done more. ( I don't and won't own a credit card, learned my lesson a lonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng time ago) One more week and it's back to school for me, let's see if I can handle the pressure of 6 classes? Yeah I am really freakin stressin! Anyways I think I summed up my weekend or whatever, I missed you and you too. Ha ha (Patti and Shannon) A welcome to all the new people I have not met yet either, I am Nickie! Was that too much.... Sorry so boring! redface
Posted 8/16/2005 12:24 AM (GMT 0)
OMG! Nickie, I am so friggin glad u r back! I missed u so much. I dont know where Shannon is. She is usually here on Mondays, I guess she is busy (I hope that is all it is!) Geez did and do I need you both. It has been a living hell. The first few Kevin days were good, but it is just going down the tubes. mad And honey before I continue about myself, I want u to know that while I do not drink (I never have as when I had my 1st seizure at age 12, my Doc said NO ALCHOHOL).

 If I had had my first seizure later in life u can bet your bottom dollar I would be the biggest drunk in South florida tongue so my dear there is no JUDGING here. I wish u wouldnt, just because I worry about your health, but I promise that is all. And I am sure Shannon feels the same way. Ya' know, I hate to do this, but I cant stop crying, so I am going to take my dogs for a walk and if I can stop crying to tell u the BS I will come back on. If not, I promise I will be here tomorrow to talk. Besides th Kevin and Patti problems, I stuck my neck out for a guy in the ulcerative colitis room, now a few of them are dissing me, and u know me my feelings are so hurt. I know it is sooooo ludicrous but I feel like I am dying inside. I tried so hard and all I got was hurt, not to mention the Forum Moderator had to lock the thread! So, I thought we all made "nice" but nobody will "talk" to me in that room since. Anyway, I have to get out here and I promise I will catch up.

I missed u so much and I hope u r feeling well, give that lil girl of yours a kiss from me!

Lots of love,

Patti  scool

Posted 8/16/2005 12:28 AM (GMT 0)
Hey Nickie, so glad to meet you!!
Posted 8/16/2005 1:13 AM (GMT 0)
 Hey Patti, what the heck happened. What do you mean they locked a thread? Well I know what it means , but why? Are you okay? If you need to e-mail me go ahead and do so.I really wish there was more I could say , but i kinda feel lost right now, from being away. I  already gave Jaylynn a little kiss from you, she says patti who? I said mommy's friend! She then said well do I know her? Gosh kids, and there 30 million questions and comments, so cute. Anyways, is Kevin still with ya, someone fill me in, hope you get back on tonight, if not I have to go to court with my friend tomorrow ( she's nervous, soon to be ex-husband and a domestic violence charges against him) . She has to testify , and I think it's like a trial. Anyhow, after that and some more shopping , I will be home . Early afternoonish!  Sending ((((((((((((( love and hugs))))))))))))))))), to Patti !!!! Sorry I wish I could be there for ya sweeetie.               Nickie

Posted 8/16/2005 1:47 PM (GMT 0)

Yea, Nicke!  I missed you bad, girl!  Dont ever leave us again, nono you know I'm borderline personality disorder, LOL! eyes

Oh, and do NOT up your welbutrin!  Anymore and you will get manic for sure.  Although it's not near as bad as SSRI, too much of it can cause mania, too and you're sounding a little hyper!

Patti, I've missed you, two!   I thought yesterday "they must be having a great time, she hasn't  been here!"  I am SO sorry to hear abuot problems with you and Kevin!  What the hell happened????? confused   

I am glad you got a pdoc!!!!  When do you see him?  It's that one your GI recommended, right?

Posted 8/16/2005 4:04 PM (GMT 0)
 Hey Shannon , nice to hear from ya hun. Is that why I am so hyper. geez, I was wondering! I was just thinking the other day about the fact that normally I am a pretty hyper person anyways, but lately I am a little over the top. Things were a little rocky at the home front this weekend, and I kinda went off the edge. Do you ever think people are scared of you, I don't mean in a physical manner. Like they are scared to approach you, or don't want to say anything to p*** you off. I think I have even noticed my mom doing it. Like intimidation, I hate giving off that effect. ( I meant to say did you ever notice, before you were stable?) I am gonna send my mom a card, I do that from time to time. I wasn't mean or anything to her, but I sometimes cut off what she has to say, like I know everything , right I am 27, even if I was 97 I wouldn't know everything! lol I will e-mail ya , and let ya know what happened, see what you think. I think I am nuts!!!!!!! Talk to ya later.

Posted 8/16/2005 4:15 PM (GMT 0)

Yeah, you might want to cut back to just 150mg a day, or even 100 preferably cos you are still in the accumulation phase, it takes 3-4 weeks to peak out, and you don't want to go there, or you'll crash, OK?  Call your doc

Oh, hell yeah!  Everybody walked on eggshells around me, but it didn't matter.  I was still just as mean, because everything pissed me off, even smells.  It was no win for them.  So so sad, I will probably never forgive myslef, I am strating to cry now.

I'm having a not so good day today, I think because I so enjoyed Paul being here 3 days in a row, we were both bumming out this morning.  It ALWAYS happens after something great ends.  I hate that.  I'll be OK, probably tomorrow.  I just finished wroking out, but it didn't help, it never does. mad   I'm just glad it's over.

Sorry to be such a bummer!  I will try to get a grip, darn it! skull

Posted 8/16/2005 8:42 PM (GMT 0)
 Shannon, just remember you very rarely go through these times, tomorrow is another day. Try to look at the next five minutes like that. I am so freakin rapid cyclin sometimes, that I can't remember what mood I  was in like 5 minutes ago. Did that make you laugh? he he. Seriously, nothing I can say , you know that  so no since in trying to bulls*** about it will get better, blah blah, look at the day as it was a ray of F****** sunshine, blah blah... Are ya laughin yet? Anyways, if your walk didn't help maybe when Paul walks in the door , you will feel better, just his presence. So think of that, or get in the kitchen and COOK some more. I wish I could eat some spicy mexican food right now. Can't though , gotta watch those calories. WRite back later girl, hope you laughed at least once. If not , well then I don't know.lol                        Nickie cool

P.S. I want to know EVERY single fight , arguement, conversation about argueing..... kidding! yeah

Posted 8/16/2005 8:56 PM (GMT 0)

Well, that worked!  You always crack me up, you sound so much like me, for real (when not giving medical advice, lol).

thanks for that, my dish turned out really great, I also called Paul and told him and I felt better, I'm all ok now!  Even happy!  I have those rapid moods, too, it sucks.  mad    Except when it's good, of course! yeah

Love ya,

Shannon

Posted 8/16/2005 10:32 PM (GMT 0)
 Glad to hear it. I don't mind my hyperness , sometimes being manic doesn't bother me, it's just so bloody tiring. Oh my gosh it's like a night of .... well you get the idea. I always worry about a crash. But you know what it's been 2-3 yrs. now and with all I have learned and experienced thus far I am getting better at knowing what might come or what is about too. Only really been ok with these 2 meds too. Like all Beepers we have tried so many. Much thanks and gratitude to you too Shannon. Okay, I don't want to get like all sentimental ahhhhhhhhhh....pause...ahhhhh.. haha, okay bye for now, it's been an all day laundry project. I need a maid or something. I can't understand why my daughter doesn't want to help, gosh she is 3. Man she should be doing the dishes , making her bed and thinking it's cool. lol Bye

Posted 8/16/2005 10:55 PM (GMT 0)
Isn't the whole point of having kids is to get some help with the housework?  Put her to work, for gosh sakes!  (Joke)

I rather like being hyper, too, except when it gets to the mean point, then not so good!

Posted 8/17/2005 1:54 AM (GMT 0)
Okay, it's almost my nighty time, and all is well. Unbelievable, I made it through a whole day , of like 3-4 swings. The same moods though. I feel special. I can't believe it, if everyday could be this way , I honestly think I could be happy. It's such a shame. So I think I have also managed to go a whole day without talking about the medical profession, now Shannon, you know how hard that is. It just feels natural to do that. It's this uplifting thing I got going on. Pray for me now, because I know what can happen. What is that saying, all good things come to an end. Who said that anyways, d***pesssimist!!!!!!!!!! mad Joking, or am I ? See all you creative , and non- boring people tomorrow. May all that felt bad today, please remember that normally I feel like that too, so i am in no way trying to be all happy, and ignoring people's hurt. SHannon, Patti and Sandra, may tomorrow be better, and may I not be cursed by this Bp thing I have. Night from Michigan!!!!
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