Patti...............???????????????????????????????

 Okay Patti, I really hate when you are feeling down one day, then I like don't hear from you for like 2 or 3 days. What's up? Write back, or I am taking the next flight out to Florida, and you know I hate busy places and rude people . That could really be detremental (sp?) to my health. (((((((((((((((  Thinking of you))))))))))))))))))))

I will ramble a little more, procastinating the laundry.lol Anyhow, did ya notice I have been using the like alot more? Hmmmmmmmmmm....... interesting. I hate the word, it sounds dumb or at least make you sound dumb. Had to take out a student loan, for my 6 , repeat 6 classes. It's all good. Classes start, MOnday. You haven't seen manic with me yet. Shannon is saying OMG, find a freakin pdoc. ( kidding shannon). Pop a line to us sweetie, you know we are wondering about ya!!!!!!! I think I am goona come up with like 2 names when I am writing, so we all know what my mood is. Ha , I think we can figure mine out,  what do you think? Nickie

Hi ladies. Kevin is still here and I AM TRYING MY BEST TO TALK TO HIM...but he is a man, so u know what the heck I am dealing with. The reason I am feeling so bad is an issue on the UC (ulcerative Colitis) Forumm. I am really sorry, as if I were u ladies I know i would want to now ALL the details. Which I promise I will tell, however I have been having unbearable headaches via side effects of my UC meds, which I started a month ago u would think they were gone by now..but NO!!!!! Anyway, I just want to apologize for all I put the both of u thru. You both mean so much to me, I really want u to know that. Now, I must get back to putting the pillow over my head, turning off the lights, and asking God...WHY ME!!! Havent I been thru enough? Cant I TRY to enjoy my husband??????? I will try to tell all tomorrow if i can see. Shannon, I am sorry u r having a problem. And Nickster, you are the bomb handling 6 classes! It is a miracle if I can put make up on...LOL!

Love you both Lots,
Patti ;~)

Hi, Patti - are you doing some better today?  How about maybe going to lunch and a matinee with Kevin?  I love doing that - we try to go every weekend (if there is something worth seeing), it really picks me up and doesnt take any effort or energy, yea!

I know your headaches are bad, can't you take some pain reliever?   When I had chronic, crippling migraines I took Fioricet and they helped, not to mention made my "mood" a little better if ya know what I mean!  YOu're sooooo lucky, Kevin could just set up up, no doctor visit required!  I would totally take advantage of that!  Or vicodin, yum.    (Not trying to be a drug pusher, you understand, just trying to help you feel better so you two can actually enjoy some time together!)  You NEED to do something enjoyable together.  Or play cards or a board game if you don't want to leave the house.  At least you aren't chained to the toilet with diarrhea!  Your bladder infection should be gone by now, it's been over a week, so how's that for some er, opportunity!

Try to think of something good to do, instead of dwelling on what's wrong.  I know it sounds stupid, but you really need to take advantage of the time he's there, I promise if you will just do something good, anything, you will feel better.

Don't worry so much about people on the board, I know it's upsetting, but Kevin is oh so much more important!

I do hope you feel some better, and I'm sorry if I sound like an idiot, lol.

 See Patti, she even came here to look for you. That was very nice. So they all can't be bad. Sounds like she is one of us, except over there. Anyways, I gotta go, busy.. busy...

Hi, Patti!  I went and read that thread (took me forever to find it!) but I totally and completely agree with you.  The guy is totally feeling sorry for himself.  Not to be mean, but i have seen WAY more of those kinds of patients than I care to.  Nothing you do helps.  They complain about everything, they are so negative they don't even give meds or other advice a chance, and they are alarmists, always thinking they have cancer without even getting tests, because they dxd  themselves online.  Thanks for letting me rant.  These patients have more psych issues than medical in most cases.  But they don't want to admit that, they just want the attention.

I think what you said was spot on, even if it was a bit "brusque"?  I remember a certain someone who shall remain nameless that I tried the tough love approach on..........     But seriously, you tried to help and you give good advice.  I just don't think he wants help, only wants people to listen, adn that;s fine, that's what support groups are all about, but it's also about letting fellow sufferers help you - after all, sometimes I think the sufferers are better experts in some ways than the docs!  I truly love this forum because I have never had BP friends that could understand all the subtle nuances never published in journals.  It's great!  If someone told me something worked great and I hadn't tried it, I would darn sure try it!  Try not to fret too much.  I didn't see anyone getting on you after you posted, were they removed?

So, you didn't say, are you and Kevin going to go do something together?  I hope you do. 

Oh, and you better quit stringing me and Nickie along with this "Kevin's going to send a pic" stuff!  *teasing*

Also, if I EVER get obnoxious like that person you were talking about ("online Dr."), tell me or shoot me in the head!

Ya know, I have seriously had my doubts about your dx of BP.  You just do not sound it at all.  If you haven't had at LEAST one true manic episode lasting more than 4 days, you are not BP.   I think you need a second opinion from the pdoc, which if he's good he will give you anyhoo.  IMHO you have depression/anxiety disorder with possible panic as well.  That doesn't resove itself, either - it is also a lifetime thing and needs the right combo of meds, just like us!  But either way, please stay here!

 Okay I am not even about to attempt to go threw and look for some persons pathetic attempt to lay out his life story and not even consider one persons' opinions. What a fruit! Anyways, lets do lunch guy if ya beg to differ. I see it all the time. It's sad ,because some of us really value another person's opinion especially, if asked. Whatever! OMG, total frustration do you remember Patti what I told you to tell your neighbors, when you first started the forum, tell that dude the same. he he. Gosh Nick, settle down.lol Shannon vented , I wanted to.

Ok, about the pics , I believe you, I am going to get a new one, unless you want a few years ago, I am still hot now, but really thin then. That's about the only difference, but I am not about to do no false advertising.lol   It's confident.... not conceited.lol I am cracking up. What goes up must come down, mood changed again? Don't ask me I just live in my body!

about the classes Patti, ahhh...... I will be fine, I work great under pressure, this is my only semester like this, then it's just my surgical classes. Are you doubting me, sometimes I do, but don't tell anyone.

So Shannon, are you worried you sound like Dr. Welby? Lol I am rolling on the floor laughing my a**off! Yeah right, you give great information here, you have facts, sites to back them up, oh and that other small thing... YOU ARE A NURSE?   GEEZ..... Not to mention you have BP, and have been through it all and are now stable, and to remind us , or let us know, you still have not so great days yourself. It's informative, knowledge, from a respectable f****** BP. Get it the " f" word. To anyone else, this is a joke in one of the lastest threads. ( Please no hate mail, it really is a joke, who says the f word more, me or Shannon). Anyways, alot of people including myself wouldn't know what to do without ya girl.

Okay last but not least, about your dx, of BP. I have never really witnessed your manic side either, Kevin would know more than us here. Unless you sign off when your manic, I am opposite I think, of course I am just all over the place. I think if your not, great. Maybe with all the problems going on, it is causing your depression or attacks? It's a possibility. You do have alot going on. If you are only a doc will know, although your husband is one. Still keep your appt. , you will want to get treated for whatever it is you are experiencing. I hope you are not , and I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo glad Kevin is there with you right now. If you are not , you better stay here though. Well at least drop us a few lines, ya know.One more thing, Shannon, is it possible you haven't noticed my manic side. I am being serious, I often wonder if people notice. Do you think my dx is right, you know I question it, and go off my meds,but I have to go right back on.If I was normal , could i just stay off them? Holy s****, did I just right all that? OMG..... I need to do something else, like clean ...oh wait that's done!!! BYE

Hey girls.I WISH we could all do lunch...picture that...hey wait I sent YOU some pics. Talk about hot, Nickie

PROVE it! You are all talk...we dont care how old or new it is..WE JUST WANT TO SEE YOU! Shannon, ever notice how the biggest frights think they are hot, then attractive women like you and I think we are not attractive..ITS PICK ON NICKIE DAY OK ya' got me, I finally got lucky last night. All infections have checked out ! This is the first a.m. I woke up without a frekin' headache. So, Kev is at Home Depot and I just dont get it! Ever since the Hurricane he friggin' lives there! Even when he is over here in Lauderdale, And it just cracks me up...he is just so not a "Home Depot"kind of guy, if u know what I mean. That is why he is there constantly...he is clueless as to what he is doing  , then he comes home and orders whatever he went to Home Depot for and orders at another place online...I swear to u guys it is an ongoing joke w/my sister and I. Oh yeah..'fore I forget, Nickie I wanted to send u the pics also, but dont have your email addy, I know u sent it to me, and anyone's addy that isnt already in my laptop AOL automatically sends it to my address book, but for some reason, yours isnt there. So, please either post it, or email it to me. Shannon have u EVER in your life seen anything as cute as Shera? I swear she is human. She gets sooooo mad when Kevin and I kiss, touch or anything! She abuses her sister CoCo, and she is so little she cant fight back. The other night (I know, how pathetic, can I get a life, blah, blah) i was torturing her. I was playing w/her and I was calling her CoCo, telling how she is Mommy's baby.....but where is Shera (meanwhile it was Shera in case u r not following), "CoCo, where is Shera u r so cute...but where is Shere" I swear to u that she was so mad she wouldnt let me touch her until today! She is very jealous  . Sometimes when she wants attention, and I am on the computer she stands on the keys so I cant type!!!! I swear I will go POSTAL when this dog goes bye bye 4-ever. As far as my dx, Kevin isnt a pdoc. I mean it is not that I hope I am Bi Polar, I am just trying to be realistic. But, shannon your dx makes a lot of sense also. Now as far as my opinion, I think EVERY mental problem I experience is hormonal, but we shall see. And Nickie if u think u r getting off as easy as me "dropping a line"...not gonna happen. I love you girls wether u like it or not, and u r STUCK with Pats (a nickname my friends call my boobs). And trust me I am counting the days until I can go see this pdoc and find out what the hell it is! I have to go water the plants and put a load of laundry in...I will be back soon to see if u got the pics Shannon and hopefully get Nick's email addy. Be well and Ill see ya' soon. Oh yeah, lastly Shannon kev thinks u r a babe! He luvs redheads, and he LOVES your doggies too. I talk about u guys and he says "Shannon is so pretty, loves dogs, Nickie is a riot, why cant u find friends like that to hang with " I say.....I WISH!!! The good ones are only in cyberspace!

Love ya' Lots,

Patti      

Patti, horned in on your post with your friends, sounds like you have some great people here, I just wanted you to know that everyone, or me didn't get the impression that the thread was locked because of you, several of the posts were locked, and not all involved you, and I'm sure the moderator emailed you because she wanted you to know that.....hope you do well

Hey Roseanne! First off u didnt horn in, u r welcome here...u r nice, that is the ony pre-requisite...LOL! Like I own the place..NOT! Yes, I have made some TERRIFIC friends here. We give and take advice and love. How are you doing? Are u tapering off the Entocort? I am down to 2 pills/day, still have BAD headches, but I am keeping the faith that they will subside. My email is on my profile, shoot me one and let me know EVERYTHING about what YU are doing. And send Samantha my love! I know the thread wasnt stopped because of me. Mark (musicmork) is a mental case. He asks for advice and never takes it. Then he has the nerve to start a new thread "about the future of us all" and once again..ITS ALL about HIM!!! He doesnt care one bit for any of us, and Roseanne if u think he does u r sadly mistaken. And I cant believe u believe that he will have the Colonoscopy. He has done the prep 4 times and left the surgical center because he was scared!!!! WA,WA,WA! I just loved having my colonoscopies. I may have all the time in the world, but I dont have time for people that are that uncaring. He was emailing me privately crying, and I fell into his trap, and where did it get me, to a place where I no longer feel comfortable. Yes, the Moderators have been emailing me daily (hmmmm...wonder why???) as they know I have something to offer. I am glad u found me, I missed you too, I miss sammy, Bob....many people, but honey I am too sensitive or people that cut u off (Quincy) I mean talk about pathetic. Anyway, this too shall pass. I promise. Thanks so much for being the caring soul tht u r. It isnt Goodbye...just see ya' later!

Love,
Patti

Hey Nickster...pics are on their way. Hope u get them! and my friend, my pics are old...x-mas pics! Get your ass in gear or I am coming looking for u! Who the hell cares what u look like (which I am sure u r a foxy lady) and if u gained a few pounds...WHO CARES! I friggin WISH I wasnt a skelton, so u can give me some of your extra weight...LOL.

Love,
Pats

Pattiand Shannon, you guys both look great. Neither of you are how I imagined . Patti, I absolutely love your top. You and Shannon are both so thin, anyways, hope when I send the pict, you guys think I am as pretty as you too. Kevin, is not at all , how I pictured him, he has a more roughness look, much better than the docs I know. They are so sophisticated even outside of work. The other docs wives probably don't like you, not because your crazy, because you are so pretty. Anyhow, I am overwhelmed right now and need to go and think. School jitters setting in, always happens. I am okay though. Can you say nervous about mock surgery? Bye for now. Love the dogs too. Jason and I cannot agree upon which dog to get , so we will wait for now. Plus jaylynn is enough.

Hi foxy ladies! Can I please stop saying "foxy"! Especially being that Nickie is a youngin, she probably doesnt even know what the hell it means...LOL! (it means, hot, pretty,etc.). Thank u for the compliment. I hope u dont think Kev is a fright, we both just dont play the "doc and doc's wife appearance game. He used to have LONG hair!!! But ya' know you would be surprised how different ER Docs are than Docs are that have their own practices/speciality. I think they think its more important to "look" the role. Nickie..DO NOT GET UPSET...but honey I have been worried about all your classes also. It isnt tht we (I am sure Shannon agrees with me) dont think "Nickie" can't handle it, but ANYONE! Not to mention your lil girl. Please dont tell me u work also or i will really FREAK!!!!!!!! Anyway, we are here to help to get thru it, and one thing u can count on from us (Shannon and I) is you will NEVER have to hear an "I told u so". I would kill over that phrase! Like Shan says, you can always drop some if need be. But, I will miss you. Not tht u ever have time for us anyway WA,WA,WA, (I am crying in case u didnt know what the "F" I was doing...LOL). I am saying later for now as I am famished then have to watch CSI and Without a Trace. Wish I was a detective or a CSI...poor, patti...LOL.

Love and hugs my buds (hey I am a poet and dont know it...cant stop, I am all that......IN MY WET DREAMS!!!!!>>>>LOL),
Pats ;~)

Okay first of all, I am going to be fine, this is not my first rodeo! 2 classses end pretty early in the semester, like Oct. and early Nov. (Classes end in Dec.) about dropping a few, don't count on that, I have a pell grant, so I would be in some big trouble , possibly have to pay those dropped classes back. Not to mention I still had to take out a student loan to cover expenses. I do not work, i wouldn't have time. My parents help out by paying my car payments, my grandma is pretty loaded and spoils me rotten. Jason is the only person that works for now in this household. We do just fine. Jaylynn has everything under the sun, and we never go without.  So I will be ok. At first it's always overwhelming. I have 2 math classes, 1 computer class, 2 physics classes and my surgical class plus lab. The only petrifying thing is the fact that at the end of the semester you perform a mock surgery and have 3 instructors watching you, waiting for you to screw up. If you don't do well and have an A in the class, you fail both, the lab and the class. We are getting prepared for real life and I understand , but wholy s***! That is my only concern but I am a great visual learner, so I should be alright. Practice makes perfect. Lots of students take a full load of classes the only difference is I have a little more trouble dealing with the time and stress. I met some of the people in my class, and know that at least 2 other women have children. So I just have to make a time table and stick to it. Getting up at 5:00 am everyday, should help. I do loose a little bit of sleep while in school, but my doc knows better than to give me anything for it, I can't miss class. Strict they are!

My friend has a scanner, tried to reach her last night, was unable. So I 'll try her again today. I really am not that concerned how I look. I think I look great, just need to loose a few more lbs.At least that's what people tell me. So enough about that.

Anyways, I really am not in a good mood today, so I probably won't be on much. Plus I have alot to do. Shannon thanks for the email. I do understand all of that, but thanks for reiterating it. Sorry if I sound a little down and out, well I am. So bye for now.