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Sandra I'm sorry you're so down.   when did it start? How have you been the last week or so?  Did anything possibly happen?  Have you called the pdoc?  I know you said you keep on top of things really well.

Shannon

I know you think that now, you feel like crap.  But it IS worth the struggle.  You'll be okay again that's how it goes.  Even when your attentive about your meds.  We can't be level all the time, I have had a rough time of it today, but it's back up.  I am up and down (mildly) all the time.  But I think of how much better it is now than then!  Most of the time, dont you find you feel ok?  Try not to lose perspective on that, Paul has noticed that I take a bad time and think it has been much longer than it actually has.  It's  hard to pinpoint.  Keep a mood chart if you don't already, it's helpful to you and your doc.    When you adjust meds for being too hyper, you can expect to feel down for a day or a few days.  that's just how it works.  It sucks, yes!  But think about how it used to be, try to keep it in perspective.    And write in here often, I find it really helps.  It took me a long time to be myself here, but I'm glad the people here totally welcomed me and I started to feel more comfortable.  We all need support, Sandra! 

 Yeah it could be worse, you could be bouncy like me all day long, I am sure you have had those days, I still frequently do. Hmmmmm....... I always thought it was a personality trait i had.he he. Just trying to cheer everyone up today. about sweets, wouldn't know too much. I have diabetes, although it is controlled, diet and exercise, daily glucose test. You should see my fingers. lol I never had it till I got prego, than it stayed with me, I have lost quite a bit of weight. I am right where I am suppose to be for my weight, maybe even a little lighter. I still would like to loose about 10 lbs. Always something, never happy. Ramble, blah , blah.Also wanted to add that my meds make some food, taste funny. Soda, yuck! Even diet tastes funny. I don't know. Glad you are reaching a calmer place. well until tomorrow......................

Yeah 200mg, of topamax is my limit. Too concerned with getting any side effects other than bad tasting food. I have really no other side effects.

Good morning, Sandra!  I'm so happy to hear you're doing some better.  It will lift it always does, that's what keeps me going.  Although it totally SUCKS at the time, we all know it's temporary, right?  I think that's the good side to BP, we aren't dooomed to stay in the dark place forever, like clinical depression.  (Although IMO our "dark place" is worse).

Haha, good perspective on being good at relationships, it's true!  Whenever I feel any even miniscule distance happening with me and Paul, I am on it!  He even comments on that.  So that's an upside, too.!

As for sweets, yes!  They cause bad mood swings!  Even tho I will still binge on chocolate if I feel bad enough, not only do I feel guilty after, but the sugar crash a few hours later causes even more depression and irritability.  So I avoid that by doing it in the evening, that way I sleep it off, lol!

Nickie, you poor thing, diabetes sucks, but I am so glad you keep it under control.  Being a med person, it's good to have that knowledge, huh?  You know there are newer glucometers that you don't have to prick your fingers (OOOUUUCCHHH), just your forearm and it takes less than a drop of blood - why don't you get one of those?

You're right, Sandra, you WILL find a nice guy, now that you're doing pretty well, you'll do much better in the relationship department, lol.  Maybe he will call you "intense" instead of psycho!

I'm feeling very good today, yea!  At least since I upped teh Seroquel and Trileptal I can sleep all the way through the night, whew!  It makes all teh difference.

Well, as usual  I have rambled enough!  Talk to you later!

Shannon