Back on Meds?

Gosh Ellie, did you read my post from yesterday. i feel real bad sweetie, I know how it is to feel like you are the person being the caretaker, housekeeper, personal chef, financial advisor...etc... I think you need to do something about your living conditions. You need a room designated for you to go to when you get real bad, so your children won't be affected by mommy crying. I know it's hard, my daughter has seen me, now i go to the bathroom and lock the door. We have 8 rooms in this house, but the bathroom is the only one with a lock on it. You need an escape place hon. Can your kids help with chores, how old are they? Is your husband blind that you are not well. You need to be on any meds that help you, he needs to sacrifice his s*** then. It's frustrating, I kinda go through the same stuff, but my house is huge and I only live with 2 other people. I wish I could offer more words, but I can't , you have my support. One more question, does your daughter and your grandaughter live with you? Not to be nosy or mean , if she is  living with you , is it because she cannot make it on her own? You need support from your family, especillay your husband. I am here if you ever need to talk , k Ellie.

Ahhhhh.. I see . Why doesn't he make his son do any chores, it teaches kids responsibility. It prepares them , not to mention if chores are done for awhile without having to tell them to do it all the time, it could be rewarded. I think your husband needs to sit and think what is important and what isn't. Sorry to say i have great words but am in the same predictiment . Nothing i say matters orr gets done. It's like pulling teeth sometimes. Do you and your husband have anything in common? What do you guys do together away from the kids? Do you get any alone time? Really that is detrimental to your health. I love to get away even if it's for 30 minutes, although i just leave sometimes. I tell my daughter i am going to shoot pool( not often), and that her dad is gonna stay with her. Sometimes they drop me off, cause we really only have one car. Mine is almost brand new, his are junk. And then I relax. Shooting pool is relaxing to me, I enjoy it so much. It s a good thing I don't own one in the basement, cause I honestly wouldn't get anything done . Maybe then Jason would do something, lol . Have a good day Ellie.

Yeah forget that idea then. What is he usually doing on the computer ?  just curious, jason's always playing cards on the computer. I don't mind though because I usually think he just isn't here. I wish I could offer you more Ellie, but I can't. Where did you live before? Have you always lived with him since you've been together, cause I thought you said you were trying this again. That's what Jason and I were suppose to be doing trying this again. lol It's funny to me, because I think I am the only one trying. Oh well, s**** happens and my life will go on. Hope you are well today Ellie!

Talk to your Dr,start taking your medication & get a life with or without hubby.Be resposible for yourself so you can care for your kids.

Absolutely no comment, Ellie if you need to talk about the situiation you are in , you know that I am here with some thoughtful advice. ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.... what is the deal lately. Are people BP posting here?

Well put Lyn. How is your son doing anyhow? How old is he. I am sure you posted here before, I just can't remember his age. I hope he is doing as well as he can be. It is nice to see parents supporting there children. Is he too young to post? I think this is a great informative forum. It can be hectic sometimes, but without it I honestly would feel all alone. My mom is very supportive, but everyone else thinks I am a pain in the... well you know. Like I just walk around saying I love when I run into angry and then 5 minutes later run into his rivalry happy manic. Geez...... I wouldn't ever want to be me. Oh wait I really don't have much choice , do I ? lol  So anyways, thanks for posting hope ya write back!  Sincerely, Nickie AKA " super crazy rapid cycling ... I can't say the rest" .

Anytime sweeetie, i do hope you stay or at least visit us. Ahhhhh.. 2 little ones huh. Ionly have one but I fear the same thing except with extreme paranoi that my 3 yr. old little girl will end upp being Bipolar. I see certain things , but then again I pacify it as she's just 3! lol I think that's what my parents did. unintentionally of course. well keep us posted! Nickie

Thanks Lyn. Sorry i have been under the weather lately. It seems I am making my rounds on the board to educate my illness to people today. I think everyone deals with this differently, and everyone reacts differently to different things. i wish i could be nice and happy all the time. but instead I feel real sick lately. Stress triggers worse thing in me. So I justt wanted to say thank YOU for being so supportive over here. have a great day. Also would of been my pap's b-day, but he died in march and i miss him ALOT. We were really close, and i took my nan to the cementary too put fall flowers on his grave, and I am sad. I feel lost and confused. That is 4 people in the last year I have lost. A friend committed suicide actually 2, I was closer to one, my great-grandmother died and my pap. So I guess i am missing everyone and have a hard time understanding why he died the way he did. ( my pap). I often ask God why it was his time , and to leave my nan alone. I just miss him and nothing can make him come back. Sorry this is so depressing, but that is where i am headed today. Thanks for caring Lyn, Nickie