Feeling blue

My husband and me have been through a lots lately and makes me think sometimes why I am at this and how its impacting my health ?
My anxiety spells are getting intense and painful which last for days and weeks and make me dsyfunctional completely,i cannot walk,cook,or get out of bed.

My husband cannot care to see what's goin on with me which is very reason he is in denial for his BP.He refuses to take his meds given by hospital and makes jokes about them.

I cannot stand this relationship or being alone ?

what to do ?

worry is tearing me apart and i need to be decisive as going on with him and relationship is killing me and me only slowly.


I am seeing therapist next week for 1st time ~hope it will resolve some worries but i am skeptical.

you worry about you. HE obviously does not care. stuff worrying about him and getting all sick yourself. let him be for a bit then he might start giving a expletive once you have been gone for a bit. sorry i am being straight up. i don't like to see this happening. he might be unwell, it does not excuse his demeanor nor behaviour. keep strong. here for ya. sending stacks of peaceful light your way.