Doctors Visit.

Went to the Dr. today and was told to STAY ON the Abilify and give it a chance to work this time.  Also use the klonopin as needed.  Wants me to see how this does before adding anything else.  And of course she did the chest Xray to figure out whats going on in my chest.  No word on that till monday.  Great, I get to sit and wonder if theres some mass in my lung all weekend.  She told me to quit panicing though. Easy for her to say.  Said it sounded like pleuretic something or other and she was just ruling out pnemonia.  I seem to panic kinda easy.  Anything seems to set me off lately.  Noises, Smells for heavens sake, can send me right over the top.  Wonder how many of those are real, I smell smoke and gas alot that noone else smells.  Can you hallucinate a smell?  Way too weird.

I can't wait till these meds really kick in and I can calm down.  Every muscle iln my body is sore from being all tensed up all the time.  Arrgh.  I know, I just need to give it time.

Ellie

Way to go Ellie. Glad to hear it. Anyways,  abpout pleurisy, my dad had both that and pnuemonia. I won't talk about it till I know what your dx is, Shannon is right though it is treatable. So let us know Monday. I also hear voices and smell stuff that isn't there. It sucked, sorry i did have those problems until my meds kicked in now it only happens every once in awhile. It does suck and if around people when it happens it is as if you are crazy, well that's how I felt. Good luck now, and best wishes Ellie. I am happy for you.

Its strange how the smoke alarm went off for like half an hour last night (I was broiling burgers on high, Im a currently a little short on patience) and the noise was driving everyone in the house nuts. That didn't bother me at all but let someone scrape their fork across their plate or pick at a nail or the dog lick itself and I can't even be in the room.
With the smells, I think thats why I was throwing all the food away. Everything smells odd to me. Food all smells spoiled. My hubby wont let me in the kitchen now until its in the pan or marinade or whatever. We're too broke for me to toss everything out, I just panic and I can't help it. I told him what we spent on meds we'd save twice that on grocerys. Thats one of the first things that are positively affected with the meds. I calm down on food. Of course I stop eating but right now I'm 130 and 5' 3". Heaviest I've been in twenty years. Normally I stay around 110.
I quit smoking 3 years ago as well. I smoked 2 1/2 packs a day for 20+ years and quit cold turkey on the first attempt. I will admit though, when the BP stuff started again in the spring, I did try to smoke for about a week. Couldn't manage it, felt like inhaling fire. I was just desperate to calm down and thought it might help. No. Plus my thirteen year old daughter wouldn't speak to me. She caught me with a cigarette (I felt 15) and informed me she was disgusted and didn't speak to me again until I quit. I gained ten pounds when I quit (the first time) and kept another ten when I had my youngest, maybe I'll drop a little weight.
As for knowing I"m bp. I know, I just don't like admitting it. It's almost like if I don't say the words out loud that maybe the monster will forget me and go away. Silly huh. I also have other symptoms I don't tell anyone about. I'm not sure how much we're free to say here. Way too scary.
I have to take these meds. This time I have no choice. Things have accelerated beyond being merely incovenient. I'm going to make it. I've survived alot in my life. I can do this.
By the way, Welcome Misty two. I used to live in GA as well and have a daughter and grandson still there. Hope you find what you're looking for here.
Ellie