Day recap 4/8/15

Today went well. Spent time with my daughter and we did our nails. Took my son to a 4-H meeting and that was really overwhelming. Really not sure how I'm going to get through all of that stuff. Why can't he do something simple like a craft instead of a horse. Ugh. Went to our friend's house and had a good time. My husband missed me today. He was sending me cute texts. I love when he is like that. Who knew after everything that we have been through we would be so in love like this. I love it. My best friend wishes she and her husband were like that. The more I talk to people that are married I find out that not a lot of couples are very affectionate to each other. Got things done around the house but didn't workout. Maybe tomorrow I will find the time to do some exercises. I doubt it though. Well here is to a great day tomorrow.

At the beginning my husband and I used to fight all the time. Then when they diagnosed me as being Bipolar I and got my medicine adjusted it got better. These past 2 years have been amazing. Maybe it's because my last hospital visit was a big wake up call for me. I don't take anything for granted.

Today me and my daughter were bunting heads. It's like everything I sad she said a exhausted response. I kept picking up after everyone and picking up clothes everywhere. Then when I came home from grocery shopping no one offered to help bring the groceries in. I know I could ask but this isn't the first time that I come home and have food to put away. Tomorrow I have laundry to do. I would try to enjoy the warmer weather but here it keeps raining. So much for that. Oh I did treat us to Ben & Jerry's tonight. That was so yummy!!

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He has learned through the years how this disorder has effected me and my family. He sticks up for me if anyone acts like its not a big deal. He does have his limits and I don't blame him. My last hospital visit made him say I can't get out of control like I did ever again because he can't go through the pain. I understand and I don't ever want to leave him either. He is my world, my best friend and the only one that understands me inside and out. It does make me have a more straight thinking life. I think a lot before I make decisions and make sure I'm not going manic. I always pay attention around September and October because those are bad months for me. I usually go out of control real fast and not realized the risk taking behavior that I do until it's already to late. Now when those months come I pay attention to my moods and when I feel strange and my eyes feel weird I tell my nurse practitioner and she adjusts my dosage. I did it last year and I was very good. No risky behavior and no hospital visits. Very good for me. Now I need to teach my daughter these same things so she can stay out of the hospital as well. 2014 and now have been an eye opening experience for her and us. It will be very challenging to get her to pay attention to her moods before they get out of hand.

Lis1208

I have no choice really on practicing it. If I want to keep my family and my loving husband I need to always watch how I'm feeling. Plus the right combination of medicine helps too. I see how the my actions have hurt my family and how it was hard on me when I was growing up. I'm so blessed to have the family that I have. I'm glad that I have the husband that I have because he's the only one that understands me and I don't think anyone else has his patience and understanding of my disorder. At times I get impatient and want to have a crazy day and be wild and free but the consequences are to great that it's just not worth it and when you crash it is really bad and in the end it's not all that great.

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