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Posted 3/10/2016 4:34 PM (GMT 0)
I broke up with my ex about a month ago after 2 and a half years. I was unhappy so we ended it very amicably. We lived together so I had to pack up within 2 days because I couldn't stay there with him there, and I moved into my dads place.

The first week was really hard, then it started getting easier. Then I went on a trip with my best friend and some of her friends and it all went downhill. I have major social anxiety and I have bipolar 2 disorder. It literally feels like someone is standing on my chest and when it gets that way I become mean. I had a little blow up on the trip because I wasn't comfortable with them and I didn't feel like I fit in. I got back from the trip and I was a mess. I cried for 3 days and even got physically sick to the point where I couldn't go into work. I also get really angry and I just want to punch something.

I'm missing him so much. He was always there when I needed him and I feel so alone right now. I don't understand why I feel this way since I was the one who was unhappy. It was my birth yon Friday and he texted me to wish me a happy birthday and I just lost it emotionally. Sometimes I just want to talk to him about the way I'm feeling but I feel like that would make it worse.

I have some friends but I feel like they are always busy with there own lives. I want to hang out with my friends but at the same time I just don't want to do anything except sit in bed and watch tv. I've been in 3 long term relationships before him and this is definitely the hardest. The thought of him with someone else drives me nuts and the thought of dating again terrifies me. I want to go see a therapist but I have horrible insurance, I have a psychiatrist but as most people know it's usually just a 15 minute appointment.

I can't take this anymore and I wish I could control this anxiety. On top of that my dad may have a drinking problem. I don't know what to do.

Thanks for reading this
Posted 3/11/2016 3:04 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Pennyln,

Break-ups can make us feel this way as we tend to get depressed and anxious. Although you feel to stay in bed, you have to push yourself little by little and do things. It will be very hard, but you need to take the first step. Maybe go out with your friends just one day/night and see how you feel.

It's a great idea that you want to see a therapist. Therapy is helpful. I attended therapy for a period of time. Check around and see which therapist your insurance would cover. Can you psychiatrist recommend one?

I hope things get better for you.

UA
Posted 3/11/2016 4:30 PM (GMT 0)
I have insurance from healthcare.gov and I pay $200 a month and have a $6000 deductable and no copay options. I already pay $550 a month for student loans and so many other bills. I make less than $30,000 a year. So there is no way I can afford to pay a therapist.
Posted 3/13/2016 5:45 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Pennyln,

How have things been? How have you been feeling these past few days?

Therapy can be expensive especially when we have other expenses. I would encourage you to keep posting as you will find support here. Please also feel free to check out our resources area where you can find useful information as well as coping techniques:
www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=13&m=350839

There are also hotlines you can call when you feel overwhelmed. Most are toll free. They reps there are very friendly and helpful. After speaking with someone there, you tend to feel better. If you are ever overwhelmed, I would suggest you try it.

UA
Posted 3/17/2016 9:10 PM (GMT 0)
Pennin, the best help i ever received was from group therapy, very small fee. look into it. Peace

Larry ***
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