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Posted Yesterday 4:36 AM (GMT 0)
I know a few of you have heard this - but im really really frustrated tongiht, so im going to ask all of you the burning question in my mind.

Can doctors really do anything, or do they just want your money?

I have had sooo many uncaring doctors who have told me things werent wrong with me - Physically and mentally. This year I lost all trust in doctors after countless appointments in countless areas, and trips to the ER. Then BP came up, and i decided giving a doctor a chance with that was my only option.

Lately I havent been stable (big surprise) mostly due to some medication changes that just arent working. But the only solutions my doctor has for me is ot drive an hour, and pay him for fifteen minutes of my time, and drive back, and do it again in two weeks when my meds just dont work out. If he isnt in the office, i have no where else to go. Im just confused, because he seems to care and know what hes talking about and all that - but i just feel like im paying $100 to see doctors every month (not much really - but for the income i have now, it is) and im getting no where.

I know im just being selfish and he cant always be there, and i should go in to see him and all that - but its so hard. Ihate taking meds as it is, now all this. Im ready to just bag it all. Whats the difference? Im all over the place anyhow - meds or no.

GAH. How do I get through this? What do you guys do? Am i expecting too much? Or too little? Or what? I dont even know what a doctor is supposed to be able to do - I guess. All I know is that a large part of me hates them, and a larger part of me has always fears Pdocs, and IM dreading my appointment next week even though i need it desperately. My doctor wanted to get me in this week, but i couldnt make it in when he had a time, so im scheduled for next week. But I really just want to cancle it.

Do any of you ever feel this way? Or am i just really really really crazy?

Thanks all.

Rock

Posted Yesterday 6:04 AM (GMT 0)
No you're not crazy, just fed up. The whole dr. thing if so frustrating. Necessary though. If you're not satisfied with this particular Dr. then find another. You should not feel uncomfortable. It sounds like you trust this one somewhat though. Maybe you're still just trying to find the right cocktail. Sometimes it takes a while. Hang in there, I know it's hard.
You'll be in my prayers
Ellie
Posted Today 7:55 PM (GMT 0)

Thank you Ellie. Yes, i am fed up. I know it takes a while, and i havent even started down that road hardly. I have been through tons of meds before, i just - ive never had such over the top reactions to them before, and now its like the click of a button and im being controlled by something in a way i dont like. I think more than anything im terrified to go back and be put on something else and see what that one does to me. Then again, this med is making me soo anxious that being scared out of my mind is fairly normal. Oh well.

Anyway, i appreciate the support and prayers. It jsut isnt enough to hear it from someone who hasnt been there and doesnt understand what it is to change meds so much, and have them change you.

Rock

Posted 12/5/2005 5:49 PM (GMT 0)
If you are not able to pay them $100 for 15 minutes of time, you are human and normal. If you are having troubles with your meds not working, gosh I know the feeling. That can go on for months or years. It takes a long time to find the right medications and the right combinations and the right dosage is the key! Then sometimes they want to change the meds and then the whole thing comes again! I used to dread the going to the psych dr so many times to. Have you asked them for a discount rate as you need to go to them and can't pay them that $100 each time due to your income level?

Have you tried to get (and this depends on your income and whether you're working, etc), Medical Assistance, free psych meds as samples from the pharmaceutical companies, or samples that the doctors already have sitting in the cabinet? AND/or going to the County offices for assistance such as a cheaper rate for a psychiatrist and therapist at your county - Dept of Human Services? Try them, call them right away and ask for Intake. Then they can see if they can help you at a much cheaper rate than you are paying. Your county has to help you out! That may take a few months to set up though as you may have to wait your turn in line.
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