?new symptoms or med side effect??

Hi Lazy, I can somewhat identify with your type of anxiety. Mine happens when I'm on the way down, almost like a red flag. My thoughts are of me just dying or my friends dying or my animals dying. This morning I was opening a window in my house, beautiful day here, and I had this sudden thought that I wasn't going to make it back from work today. Today I was going to die. It's a quick thought and very unsettling but I did make it home from work today. I've been having many of these lately and it coincides with coming off an antidepressant. I've been keeping a mood chart and when I see my pdr. this week I will be able to show him how I've been going downhill. Without this chart I usually was just able to report how I was feeling the day of the appointment. I don't know if you are like me but I have such a hard time remembering things since I started on BP meds. So, you might want to try something like a daily chart and see if it happens more or less due to something going on in your life. Best wishes...This is a tough illness, no doubt about it.

I have flashes of disturbing thoughts like that too. I never tell anyone about them because they are strange and out of the blue..but yeah it is disturbing.

Thanks for your replies.  It is hard to talk about so I appreciate everyone's honesty.  I looked up the Geodon that I'm on and there is nothing like this listed as a side effect so I guess its the disease.  Sometimes its like a fog rolling in.  Today at work I felt it coming on and I felt helpless.  Getting home to my hubby and pets helped me take my mind off it.