New Here. Looking for support and make new friends!

to introduce myself.

I'm a 28 year old married mother to 3 young kids. Been married for 8 years.

I suffered from clinical depression when i was 11 til about 15. My sister comitted suicide when I was 11 and I had a hard time dealing with it.

In June of 2006 I left my husband and went to live with my cousins (same ages as me) and basically partied, drank, had 3 sexual relations...TOTALLY out of character for me.

Noone could figure out what was happening, not even me. I was going 100 miles an hour 24 hours a day.

July 31 it all came to a crashing halt. I threatened to burn the house down and then took off with 2 bottles of pills. Friends that had been over started calling me, worried- but I wouldnt talk to them. I was driving around and had planned on killing myself by driving off a bridge.

A call from my cousin came in and I answered. She told me to get to the hospital or she'd call the cops. I somehow listened to her and drove to the hospital, about 8 minutes from where I was.

I was admitted and the next day after doing a few tests(personality tests on paper) I was diagnosed with bipolar. I was started on Epival and was discharged 10 days later- I then moved back with my hubby and kids. He had been confused and hurt the whole time I was gone but when I got into the hospital he was supportive and understood then that i had a problem.

I had 2 more hospitalizations in august and september and now am involved in a team at my local mental health office. They are great there. My diagnosis of Bipolar 1 with rapid cycling and mixed states makes a whole bunch of sense to me now.

I was switched to seroquel and wellbutrin in September and just last week my doctor added lithium and clonazepan since I am kind of manic for the past week.

I'd LOVE to have someone or a few people in my position to chat to on MSN or yahoo...

I live in BC, Canada- is there anyone else from this area?

Anyhow, my msn is [email protected]  if anyone would like to add me I'd love to talk. I've read about bipolar alot but I dont know anyone else who has it.

THanks for reading!! Janet

Hi Janet!

Well I'm guessing you know that you found the right place. Basically everyone that is here has some form of BP. I love it here because people with BP are completely normal... and most of society picks a joke with Bipolar Disorder because they think a person who has it is "crazy".

It is a great feeling to see the other normal BP members just like me =)

Hi Janet, I have bpd and I too have done some real crazy things when I've been manic.  It is helpful to talk to people that have this mood disorder.  People that understand.  I had to educate myself to understand and to see if I thought that I suffer from bpd.  I eventually accepted that yes I do indeed have this mental illness.  Being manic can be very dangerous and can really cause big problems in our lives, as you found out.  I take Lamictal for a mood stabilizer and Wellbutrin for depression that goes with bpd.  I have also been diagnosed with ADD.  I now take Adderall.  I researched this also.  I found out that many Bipolars suffer from ADD too.  I found that very interesting.  Hang on to your seat because finding the right regimen is difficult.  Just when one med is working another stops working.  I go through med changes often.  My pdoc just added a small dose of Prozac to my regimen to help me with depression, which I've been having for the last couple of weeks.  But that's just for now.  Who knows a month or two months for now.  We are also working on the right dose of Adderall.  I've only been on this med for the last couple of months.  OMG for me it was a miracle med.  I had energy and just felt great.  Then of course depression took care of that.  I wish you luck and would suggest to you to educate yourself, learn what your triggers are, try to observe your moods and to continue talking with others that have bpd. 

Loben