Dutchie,
Thanks for your post, and support. It's so touching to feel so appreciated. I can't begin to tell you how wonderful this forum is. I have found so much help here. It is SO important to have a place to go to where there is no judgement, like you said.
It feels great to me, to be starting a new path in my life, and I know that's what you are trying to do as well, and I know you can do it. It's really smart and good that you are taking a break from work, especially with starting meds. They can be really hard. You are having a really positive, focused outlook on things, which is very healthy. I know that's not the case 24/7, and there is a lot to sort through, the guilt etc. But I have faith that you will get there.
I will be sure to let you know about my funding, when I know...And it would be great if you get training in the fall, when you are ready. It's definitely not too late, not even close. You can acheive your goal.
You take care too, so glad you found HW.