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Posted 7/2/2007 6:52 PM (GMT 0)
It seems as if all the AD's have finally worked their way out of my system.  I have a houseful of company.  Kids are everywhere, dogs barking.  I don't think I've ever had a headache this bad in my life,  Now in addition to being the biggest b***h ever, I'm back in bed again.  My ex has made his displeasure quite obvious, as have my two older daughters.  I've tried to explain "Mixed Episode" which my ex promptly told me is BS and that I'm just being this way to make everyone miserable.  I admit that I am ruining this visit for everyone, but I can guarantee that there is noone in this house more miserable than myself.  At least they have the option to leave, (which I made very loud and clear last night) 

The pdoc won't put me on new AD's until next week, so this just has to be survived, if I can.  What a joy to take this walk through he** with such abounding support of my family.

Posted 7/2/2007 11:47 PM (GMT 0)
Hi Ellie:

Hang in there. Stress and bipolar -- two great tastes that never go great together.

If your family won't be supportive, that's their choice, you can't change that. All you can do is take care of yourself. They won't be pleased no matter what you do, at this point, so just look to your own resources to try and keep yourself okay. I wouldn't expect your ex to be sypathetic, but your daughters at least???

Try and eliminate as much stress as you possibly can this week until you see your doc again. If it feels better to stay in bed, stay in bed. Ask for help, delegate responsibility, claim a horrible headache, apologize if necessary, but don't feel guilty. You've got an illness, darnit. No one complains when family members with obvious physical ailments are sick. But mood disorders are easy to write off as "imaginary". Ignore the naysayers and take care of yourself.

Feel better,
serafena
Posted 7/3/2007 2:06 AM (GMT 0)
God, you have no idea how much I needed to hear that tonight. I fought with everyone in my house today, (verbally). I've got my ex talking about me to my kids. He bounces between there being nothing wrong with me and telling them I'm crazy. Then he's all goodness and light and wants to be my friend. I think HE needs to be checked for a mood disorder.
They're here until Friday, God help me. I really feel like I might be going crazy. I'm losing my language skills. I'm okay typing, but when I speak, I can't find words. Can't even make an intellegent argument. I couldn't remember what a glove box was called and groped for the word until my 5 year old finally filled in the gap for me. I can't read. I make it through a paragraph and I've already forgotten how it started. In addition to feeling crazy, now I feel stupid too. The only thing I was able to do until recently was mindlessly crochet, not I can't follow the pattern. It feels like life is crashing down around me and a week is a very long time to wait for an appt.
Thank You Serafena
Ellie
Posted 7/3/2007 12:57 PM (GMT 0)
Any time, sugar.
Posted 7/4/2007 12:37 AM (GMT 0)
i just wanted to let you know that your not alone in he**. i'm a week away from my appt. with my new pdoc and my mind is so screwed up i dont know which way is what. its suddenly become the longest week in the history of man kind. and i've now had to go back and read your posts three times to make sure i'm making some sense here. i wish it were next week. and we both were feeling better. just hang in there we're almost there. we can hang together.
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