well back on meds now for nearly 2 weeks.well lasted a liitle med free.not restarting lithium.starting sodium valporate i think its the only mood stabilzer ive never been on.also wants me to restart lamical.not sure.things were goin ok or i thought there were.so when i was on here saying i was doing well.i wasnt according to family friends.i was drinking a lot.apparatly when i was on meds i never drank much.and i was always agaisnt illegal drugs.i was spending less time with my girlfriend always with my mates.these last couple of weeks i feel terrible.hardly spent any time with my girlfriend but recenly we had a good talk.she started crying and for some reason i thought about
the things she said.i really thought i was doing well but it seems maybe i was not. i dont understand how can everything seem ok. yes i was still very depressed but i seemed happpier. i didnt realize how upset my family friends and girlfriend were. even my dog who goes every where with me. i spent little time with him. its shocking how things can seem fine but to other people there not.
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