Update on me

Hi everyone,   Since it's been a while since my last post, I just wanted to give you all an update on how things are going with me.   Well, in a word - hard.  But I'm getting through each day.  I'm trying to lower my expectations of myself so that I'm not setting myself up to fail.  I'm trying to remember that it will take baby steps to get well again.  It's not an easy thing, especially when you still have to deal with the every day life problems.  Although I would like to remain a recluse forever, because it's so much easier, I know that I cannot do this.  I do have kids after all and today is one of those days that I had to go out and face the world and I was able to do it.  If it wasn't for the fact that my daughter needed medical attention, I wouldn't have gone out.  My husband could have taken care of it quite capably, but I wanted to be involved as well - so I did.    I'm trying to keep my anxiety in check so it doesn't overwhelm me and so far it's going pretty well.  I'm continuing to see my therapist and will do so for quite awhile I think.  I'm seeing my pdoc tomorrow to go over the current meds and just to basically check in with him on how I'm doing.  I don't think it will go like the last appoint did, with me being admitted to the hospital.  I don't think I'm anywhere close to being like I was a few weeks ago.  I feel good and hope the doc sees that.  But I will let you all know how the appointment goes.   I'm even feeling optimistic enough to think about starting my own sewing business.  This is something I have wanted to do for a very long time and now seems like the time to do it.  I already have a couple of customers and hope to build on them through word of mouth.  So far it's working.  I love to sew, it's very relaxing for me and I'm pretty good at it.    Thank you all so much for continuing to ask about how I'm doing, the Healing Well family has come to mean so much to me and I am going to get back to posting on a regular basis.   To each and every person here - I wish you all a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.  Please stay safe and enjoy the holidays.   Hugs to all, Wen

Hi Wen,

I'm glad to hear that your starting to feel better,... in baby steps. Hey, we gotta do what we gotta do. But you sound like you're doing a good job! Continue to stay focused and try not to overwhelm yourself by trying to do too much right now.

I hope your daughter is doing better and that your doctors appointments all went well. And I'm so glad that you are doing something for yourself that you love to do with all the sewing. That is very good therapy in itself! You Love it and it Relaxes you.

I hope you continue on the path of wellness and I hope you and your family can all enjoy a happy and healthy holiday season.

P.S. I got a 10 on the trivia game today....but it was "General Knowledge-Very Easy"....

Thank you all for your great support.  My last psych appointment went well - no admission - YAY!  We did change a med - went from Ativan to Valium as I told him I was having major memory loss.  He then told me that Ativan is notorius for causing memory loss in many people who take it.  So I told him I didn't want to be on it any more.  After some discussion we decided that Valium would be the best option for now.   It's great with my doctor appointments now - any of them, my husband actually comes in to the office/exam room to meet with the doc with me.  This way he knows what's going on and knows about any med changes, etc.  He's not EVER done this before, but I think since he is taking care of all my meds now, he wants to know what's going on instead of me just telling him what's going on.  You have no idea how much this means to me that he cares so much that he is willing to actually come in and meet with the docs with me.   I am continuing to sew, business is slow of course - just starting is slow.  But I do have a few customers and a couple of repeat customers - which is so cool.  I love to sew, it keeps my mind occupied on other things besides myself; which is so much better.   I just thought I would share this with you all.  I hope everyone has a great New Year and be safe everyone.  There will lots of nuts out there on the roads who shouldn't be.   Hugs to all, Wen

Wen, so glad to hear all the positive things going on. The future looks bright. I also do hear how happy you are with your husbands involvement. I hear how much it means to you. I hope that you are sharing this with him too. More than perhaps just words out lout saying thank you. Perhaps a little note devoted to sharing how loved it is making you feel, how much less alone you feel now, how much strength it has given you to know he is walking this path to wellness with you. As a spouse, these are things that by sharing it with us, makes it ALL worth it. It lets us know that our deep love and devotion is being received and that brings us joy in return. It also helps us navigate the harder times to be able to go back and re-read something like that we may have been given. It is tangible. We can touch it, re-read it as often as we need or want vs. something we have to remember was said to us once. Does that make sense?

Keep up the great work Wen...you have a lot to be proud of yourself for. HUGS...LFW

Ya know, you guys have to stop it - you're making me cry!!  LOL  Seriously, I love that you all are so supportive and have so many wonderful words to say.   LFW, I do tell my hubby how much I appreciate appreciate him, but honestly I hadn't thought about notes and such.  I will start doing that because it's a great idea.  Thank you for that - I'm sure he will be surprised with it.  :)   Mr. T, you are so right we can always learn something new here as well as make great new friends.  I also still have confusion and memory loss and the memories wont be coming back according to my doc.  There have been many things I just don't remember and it's so frustrating.   Casem, it's been difficult at times to keep going but I feel that I really don't have a choice.  I have a family that I care deeply about and know they would be devestated if I were not here.  I love the sewing and as you said it does relax me and I really do enjoy it.   I really do appreciate my husband more than you know and will continue to do so.   Happy New Year to you all. Wen