23, Breast Masses and Scared

Hello
I'm 23 years old and my first Fibroadenoma was at 18 and was fairly large. I got it removed and tested and everything was fine. I had another 2 smaller ones that I didn't have to get removed. In the last couple of months I felt another large mass 4.4 cm x 2.3 cm on my left breast and went to my doctor. She sent me to get another breast ultrasound. Radiologist told me I had another 2 new ones and that the other ones were stable. Told me not to worry that it is also Fibroadenoma. A couple of days later my doctor got the results and suggested I go back to the specialist to check it out. I went yesterday and he told me that it is most probably what I had the last time but sent me to get my breast ultrasound film so I can give it to the breast care center at my hospital to see if I should get them biopsied.

I felt ok and did all my errands for that today when I saw my written results from the radiology center. It states that the 2 masses are solid hypoechoic irregular masses with angular margins. Width being larger than its height. Googling all this it scared me seeing that angular margins are one of the characteristics of a malignant mass. My doctor also told the breast center that he was concerned after he told me not worry and that this wasn't dangerous. All of this is freaking me out. I don't no if he just said that so they can be quicker with an appointment for me or if there is something he is not telling me. I just want to know if anyone has shared a similar experience and if I should worry. I now have to wait up to 2 weeks for them to call me after they watch the film and decide if I need a biopsy. I thank you in advance for any responses:)

How things get worded to us as patients can vary from how the doctors word things for insurance and referral purposes. The doctors need to express a "concern" in order to rule out a specific diagnosis.

At this juncture, I wouldn't read more into that statement.



M.

Hey Alexikins, so glad you are reaching out for support. I really am sorry that you are having troubles with your breasts, really this is not something I would wish on any one, it is devastating, to deal with a serious illness/disease. Honestly, you do not have to worry about what you do not know yet, it is hard to not worry about the what ifs, but if you can think about what you do know. i know it is really hard to do this, I am going for my first appointment with the specialists and cancer team tomorow, I know i have cancer, what I do not know is how bad is it, has it spread am i in really serious trouble, ect, there are some things I am pretty sure about by what my doctor said, that the fact that it is in my lymph nodes makes it serious, I just don't know how serious so I think about what I do know and try to come to terms with that. Yes I have cancer, yes it is in the lymph nodes, yes I need more information before I can come to terms with what I don't know =). the fact that my doctor talked to me sorry don't know how to spell it lol so will just say fake breasts, (forgive me if this offends anyone) tells me that a mastectomy is probable.. but you know what I did not get confirmation that this is indeed the case, so me being me I'm going to belive that it is possible this may not happen untill told other wise. this does not mean i do not have moments of doubt and fear, that would be a lie, cause I do, i think it is human nature to think contemplate the what ifs, but I try very hard not to think about them to often or to long because like i said untill I get the facts, it is just that a what if's. Please understand this is not the same as denial, because I am very aware I have breast cancer, and any cancer is a serious thing, what i don't do is tire my self out thinking about what ifs too much because I am pretty confident i am going to need all my energy to deal with what i do know =). I hope this helps Alix, and i do empathize with you and I do understand were you are coming from, and i do want you to share with us your fears, concerns and triumphs =). Just letting you know that the what if's are not your priority at the moment, your priority right now is you =) and that means being gentle with your self and not tiring your self out. Talking to others is really healthy and it helps keep the what ifs at bay. i wont be able to post tomorow but hopefully will be able to post again on thursday, please keep in touch and know that my prayers are with you, and if the what ifs creep up on you it is ok this is a way that we try to prepare our selves for possible out comes, but they are at this point just possibles, and we need to look at it that way hey =) Untill im told otherwise everything I can think of are just possibilities, and I am just going to deal with what I do know for today. If tommorows possibilities are better than my what IF's Cheers!!! If my Ifs are confirmed then I will deal with them too, but the ifs are not going to take up to much of my time as I hope they will nt take up to much of yours. I know it is a long wait, waiting can be brutal, but you do not have to wait alone.