gma said...
Well, my dear little star, methinks you need to think this over.......... afraid of a needle? Believe me a serious illness, not just breast cancer, but others too, require more than needles to make you well and live. You mean to tell me you are going to let you health go and possibly turn into something worse because you are afraid of a needle? At age 50???? Come on. Many of the women who have survived breast cancer have fought long and hard to survive. Many young mothers who are friends of ours have lost very brave battles, enduring all kinds of surgeries and chemos and radiation only to lose their battles and you will not even have a biopsy????? OMG I better end it here. MK
You do not understand. As a young child, I needed some teeth extracted. They couldn't find a vein. And the more they tried, the harder it was for me to keep still. So they asked my mom to leave the room. And they tied my arms to the chair. And they were not gentle about
it. I woke up with bruised arms from the amount of times they tried to get the needle to work. You do not understand the level of fear that can leave you with. Irrational to most but very real to me. The first poster's story about
the woman who lunged off the table--when you are scared enough, your ability to reason isn't there. I went hysterical when I miscarried and they were about
to scrape the remains of my unborn child out of me. They sedated me. I totally knew what was going on, but could no longer react. Could not speak, could not cry, could not tell them when something hurt. It was like being tied to the chair all over again. Totally helpless and totally aware. Passed out holding my daughter when she received her first vaccination. Pass out if my dog gets a shot. You need someone to calm your fears, not to escalate them or make fun of them or to tell you not to be afraid. Cause you are afraid. When people belittle you for your fear, it escalates the fear and you just avoid the situation. The breast dr made me feel like crap. There were many reasons I was leary of a biopsy. Seeding of the needle track is a major concern of mine. First the dr told me there was nothing to worry about
. Cancer does not seed from a biopsy. Then she told me the needle track is removed if the lump was indeed cancerous as an extra precaution to keep the cancer from spreading through the track. Huh? A little contradiction there. And instead of doing anything to comfort my fears, she belittled me for them. Just as you did. So I opted for a thermogram and the MRI. And to adopt the healtiest lifestyle I can so if cancer is in my future, perhaps I can delay it a bit. And if chemo is in my future, insulin potentiation therapy would be my first choice. Plus I have seen more than my share of routine tests and procedures and treatments gone bad. To name just a few--My grandmother had a test to see if the arteries in her neck were clogged. She spent the rest of her life in bed as a result of the stoke from the test. My aunt had dye injected to check the functioning of her heart. It loosened a clot and she ended up in a nursing home partially parayzed. The inactivity coupled with her diabetes led to an amputaion of both legs over time. Friend went to get his wisdom teeth out. Needle damaged a nerve and he ended up with partial paralysis of one side of his face. Friends dad had cancer. Easily operable with an excellent prognosis. Gave him chemo to shrink the tumor before surgery was planned to preserve bladder function becasue of where the tumor was located. Chemo caused a blockage from the constipation and his intestine perforated and he died. Another friend had breast cancer. Caught very very early thanks to her yearly mamogram. Did a lumpectomy and they gave her a choice of having chemo as a precaution. She felt the benefits of chemo outweighed the risks. She ended up with Chemo-Induced Thrombocyt
openia. After the initial treatments failed, she had a bone marrow transplant. It was ultimately not successful. An uncle threw up a lot from his treatment. Inhaled the vomit. Died from aspiration pnuemonia. Best friend died just 2 years ago of breast cancer in her early 30's. I took her to chemo. I went to Dr appointments with her. Was there when she was told she had weeks left at best. Stayed with her in the hospital. And held her hand as she was dying. And even that is not enough to overcome my fear. At a guess, my fears will not make any logical sense to you, but they are real to me.