Hi, kasey:
So sorry that you received such distressing news from the pathology report. When I received mine in November, 2006, I was in such shock that I just kept re-reading and re-reading the report. I just could not believe that these were words
that described a condition inside my left breast. That is exactly what these are, too, just words that help the doctor know what he needs to offer you as possibilities for getting rid of the cancer in your body. The invasive part, as I understand simply means that it has gone further in the breast. The lymph node part they will know more about if you do the mastectomy.
In the meantime, take a deep breath and one step at a time. Just a story to share with you and other. When I was at the oncologist in January, 2007, I went to schedule my next appointment. I was tearful and as I sighed, I told the scheduler that I just didn't know if I could do this. I didn't know how I was going do whatever I had to do. Without missing a beat, she said to me, "Take a deep breath." I did. Then she said to take another one. I did. Then she said, as she looked at me with caring eyes, "Just keep doing that and putting one foot in front of the other. You will make and do just fine." Such simple advice but so true. So.....just take a deep breath and keep doing that. Then put one foot in front of the other. Take a breath until you find out from your medical team what the results show in English. Don't be afraid to ask questions, lots of questions. And take someone with you to take notes for you. I guarantee that you won't remember everything. And if you don't have someone to go with you, take a tape recorder.
My prayers are with you, my hugs (((((((((((((((kasey))))))))))))))) are with you,
and I am sending as much hope as cyberspace will hold (which is endless) to you. You are going to be okay. I know you are probably saying that is easy for me to say. You are right ---- now it is easy for me to say because I just went through the uncertainty and fear and anxiety that you are going through in your way. Others told me I would be okay. I have a way to go yet, but each day gets a little easier. I am so grateful that breast cancer is not a death sentence. It is just a rude intrusion in our lives at the most inconvenient time possible. Getting through it is not easy but it is doable.
I and others will be here for you. Take some time for yourself right now before things get more hectic. Be kind to yourself and lean on others all you need.
jko