reconstruction surgery tomarrow

lolol..I actually don't see it that way, but I am going to try it.

they are going to cut on the same scare I already have there, from the initial surgery.

I remember when I was frst dx'd a friend of mine who also was dx'd last year said, "gretchen,

get ready for this to be a part of your life forever, and it will take at least a years bfore, things are back to as normall as they can be."

I thought, A YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!! Come on, maybe 3-4 months...Well, now I know better.

Everything from the very beginning, seems to be moving in slow motion.

Even healing, and thats why I am a bit sfraid of the next surgery so close to the mesectomy.

The plastic surgeon was supposed to do it hen I had the mesectomy, but becasue of the lymph node issue, he opted to wait.

So tomarrow is the day,I get my new friend.

 I don't know what it is, But through all the health issues

I have been through....... THIS has been the most emotional, it has been the hardest to go through,

It is all like I am walking in the fog, and every so often I am able to see just enough to keep me going.

well, I had it.......I had the expander put in on the 9th.....it was the most painful process thus far.

I was unable to do anything for over a week, went through all my pain meds....it was horrible.

They are unable to even start the saline injections because I was in so much pain.

I couldnt pull myself up at all.....But today is the 23rd, and the pain isn't so bad ...I am going tomarrow to begin the injections of saline.

I hope that that isn't as painful.

Then my doctors office called regarding my chemo, they never sent it out, someone dropped the ball and the slides were never sent out to the path dept.  So now I have to wait another 2 weeks....which really ticks me off.

But what am I supposed to do, can't complain over that too.....So I just wait, Somemore.

Thanks for listening to me rage!