Rita,
I am so sorry about your father. Here's a big ((((((((HUG)))))))! Losing parents is very hard - losing anyone you love is hard. I have lost both of my parents, a brother, and a sister, so I know what loss means. They are never far from us even when they are gone. They live on in our memories.
I don't know if I ever mentioned it here, but I work at a cemetery/mortuary and see what people go through every day. It puts things in a different perspective.
If you need anything, just let me know.
Love,