I am sorry that you are going through the withdraws as this is a drawback from treating chronic pain. I was on opiates for 14 years of which the last 10 years oxycontin. I was up to 160mgs a day and somtimes more on bad days. Recently, (3weeks ago) I weaned myself down to 80 mgs a day over the course of 5 days and had moderate withdraw symptoms. I finally caved in and made an appointment with a suboxone doctor. I think that experiencing withdraw symptoms was the best for me b/c I knew how bad I could feel. After seeing the doctor she kept me in her office for 4 hours b/c my blood pressure was off the chart and she kept administering more suboxone until it reached normal.
The good news and bad news. The good is that all the weakness, abdominal cramping and leg kicking stopped after 3 pills or 24 mgs. I am now doing fairly well. Just have some hand shaking now and again. The bad news..... I am in more pain from the chronic pain I was in. Studies have shown that the body reacts this way b/c the opiate receptors have been suppressed for so long. I am not going to take the ultram prescribed until I know my "true" level of pain. I will wait at least another week or two as I am currently out of work on disability. Depression is very common during this period of transition and I am victim to this right now. I am taking 20mgs of Lexapro and my anxiety level is pretty bad now too. I am taking a low dose of Xanax for this month. I had to go off all meds b/c I was diagnosed with MS and I do not want my body to have any opiates in it. Do I miss the pills.... kinda but only on a psychological level to rid the pain. Suboxone will take care of any physical cravings. I seriously think that if a pill of OC was in front of me right now, I could be strong enough not to want to take it. Besides.. it wouldn't do anything for me as it has an opiate blocker"Naltroxone".
The only thing that worries me about taking sub is I ever have a procedure/surgery and need pain meds again. I never abused my pills, just made a conscious decison that my health comes first. Will I be labeled as a former "drug addict" or "drug seeker" if I need them again in the future? As of the date of this response I have had 10 surgeries and numerous procedures over the last 14 years and am quite sure I will need more in the future. Best of luck to you and I hope this response helped you.
Heather