Awful. AWFUL. Day. (Super Vent :P )

Well, it isn't even 2:00 pm yet, and I can honestly say I have had one of the worst days I have experienced in several weeks...or months, whatever.

My back pain has been seeing to it that I can't ever sleep. I had an appointment today at 11:40 am, so I went to bed around 12:00 am. I woke up at 3:00 am from this crap and could not go back to bed.

I was to see my neurosurgeon today. I haven't actually ever seen him, just his PA, and everytime I make an appointment something goes wrong. The 2nd app with him was canceled by the office due to 'personal emergency' on the doctor's behalf. Then, I went to my appointment the next time only to find out that they had incorrectly scheduled me for his other office—which is on the opposite side of the state. :) THEN, my third appointment with him was ALSO canceled by them and they couldn't reschedule me until around 4 weeks later.

I can't take this much longer. Today I was to see the surgeon, and for once they DIDN'T cancel on me. However, as soon as I get ready to leave I find out that our recently 'fixed' car's brakes are out. I had no choice but to cancel and reschedule again for NEXT month. :D

Then, as I sit around both angry and hurt I notice that my cat is acting funny. He has severe flea allergies, and my past vet told me to give him ½ a tablet of benedryl. Well, I gave it to him and became really weird and drooled so I called the vet hospital and they basically told me I'd have to bring him in for them to give me any answers or suggestions—they wouldn't even tell me what to look for in a potential OD or reaction because it was a different vet that prescribed it. Well, obviously, since I have no car I couldn't take him to the vet. He was drooling and crying and I was having a panic attack thinking that I was going to kill my cat. He is doing better now, but I still feel sick beyond words.

I am so depressed, so angry, so anxious, and so very very pained right now. I took my anxiety medication and my Tramadol and I'm trying to relax—but I felt the need to vent on here. Thanks for letting me do so. :)

Unfortunately, I live in a rural area with no public transportation or taxi services. This was just a really bizarre coincidence. We've been having very bad luck lately in both health and finances. We have two cars, but both of them broke down in one day!! So the car that was my back up was dead too! I'm going to ask my neighbor for some help, though I know her car isn't 100% either. lol! (It sucks that the doctor is so far away, which aggravates the transportation problem. I have to drive around 1 1/2 - 2 hours.)

So the next appointment is on the 7th of October. It is just really difficult to wait. I am fortunate to have my father providing for me right now--even though his finances are a mess--because I haven't been able to work since last December. I figured this injury would last a few months, and then I'd be back on my feet...but that is seldom the case it seems! Doctor after doctor, failed treatments, and lots of pain and I still have no real answers---but I'm going to keep at it! If I can't work, and I can't go to school, then I'll just have to focus on getting well instead.

Also, I read up on the cat situation. Apparently benedryl/diphenhydramine has a very bitter taste and more often than not it is actually this taste that causes the cat to drool profusely. The website I was reading said that after 20 minutes or so, the cat should return to normal--and he is. He's playing now and eating so I'm very relieved. I still need to treat his flea allergy though. It's hard when money is tight and I have no transportation to the vet!

Thanks for your reply and help, Sore42long. I hope you're having an ok day--and if not, feel free to vent about it too! lol!

Thanks educ8athome! I feel the same way.

I talk to my family about my problems, because my family members all have their own health issues. So we sorta have patience for that to an extent. However, none of us can truly understand what we're going through on a daily basis so I come on here to vent about all my frustrations instead of yapping away all day to my dad or boyfriend! :P

Plus it helps me to read and comment on other peoples' posts because it really reinforces that I'm not alone and that sometimes other people have issues and can be helped by venting or getting advice too!

I'm always super nice to people, but unfortunately they sometimes take advantage of that and walk all over me. So instead of being assertive when they screwed up my appointment time twice, I was just really nice and stuff. lol.