Posted 1/15/2012 10:53 PM (GMT 0)
Long story but quick version, goes, 60 mg of methadone a day, made more pain than it relieved, exhaustion, I thought feeling like I had the flu was just a new great part of my chronic pain. And yes, everytime I saw my PM I would always say I was fine. I am terrified to say anything because I have lost trust in the medical field even though I have to rely on it. So on Christmas day I, ME, I stopped taking methadone. My PM has weaned me down to 5 a day. So I go to see him 10 days later and he tells me he wants me on a 30 day vacation of pain, I mean no narcotic meds. But he did wrote me a big prescription of Motrin ......... My family is here, my son, my Boyfriend of 5 years without him I have no idea what I would do. I am very lucky.
So I breath in and out and watch the seconds slowly tick by while I feel like I am trapped in this body that is relentlessly painful.