Good morning GB!...and welcome!
I had to cringe as I read your introduction...and agree with Snowbunny that yes you seem to be on high doses of pain meds. At least you are weaning down with the help of the internist there, and I think they have a good plan in place for you. This will take time, so be patient....you don't want to throw yourself into a bad situation with withdrawals.
One thing we do understand here is chronic pain, and you certianly seem to be suffering with all you have gone through.
I agree with much of what Snowbunny has shared with you here, so I do not have a lot to add to it.
Were glad to see that you are reaching out for support and this is by far a wonderful forum for that.
Again welcome and enjoy the forum, and it's members!
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