Amberdawn,
I'm totally amazed at our similar history's! My name is Dawn, new here, in '87 I was hit by a pickup truck I was 17, 6yrs later I was diagnosed w/Spondylelothesis (pars fraction), Herniated disc, osteophytes on my vertabrae (arthritic bone spurs), DDD, I was ttc & started the long journey w/surgeries 4 that, I was obese after yrs of losing & gaining.
After 12yrs, 5 IVFs, a m/c, I was pg w/twins. Sadly I lost one of the babies very early on. But by some miracle my son Cory was born healthy, sterong & beautiful in 2002. In 2003 I had Roux n y gastric bypass with the thought that it would end or at least calm down my awful back pain. I lost 165lbs but the pain only intensified. By then everything in my back had prigressed & at 34 I was told that I had the back of a 90yr old. The last orthopaedic surgeon advised me that eventually I would have to have surgury but because of all the possible pain causes in my back, I delay it as l pop ng as I could. I was sent to a pain specialist for pain management.
Unforgently, I hadn't done my research and accepted the doctor's advice and was prescribed Methadone for my pain. After 9yrs at an extremely high dose of 260mgs a day (again I had no idea), I lost my doctor to what I think was some sort of DEA problem or something because he was a family doc & he.suddenly just shut down shop & said find a new doctor 4 pain management. Because of by then we lost our health insurance (& a lot of other things because of Michigan's horrid economy ) topped w/the Heroin stigma associated w/Methadone, I couldn't find another pain management doctor. Thank God that I am now thru the worst of the long painful both mentally & physically, withdrawals from the Methadone. I honestly would have ended my life if I had had the means & opportunity to do so~ that's how intense the wd's were. So my only advice is to never ever go in blind do your research on every aspect. And Never get on Methadone. If I could have I would still be on it because of the crazy weeks of restlest arms & legs & I mean NONSTOP for 2 weeks! Not a minutes rest or a second of sleep. I can't even begin to really put it into words how bad it was. But now that I am on the other side of it, I am so so happy that I am off the med. It helped my pain immensely but it also numbed my soul. I don't know what the next step for me is...I hurt so much.
I needed to reach out to you in hope that you won't make the same mistakes that I did after all that you have been through. Enjoy your little miracles and I wish you the very best. ~Dawn