Posted 6/14/2013 2:37 AM (GMT 0)
Barb,
Thanks, but to be fair, my pain isn't all that special, I feel bad for all in this community/family for their pain. Each of us probably has the pain of 10 normal people.
I had a bad day trigger on Saturday, usually, the bad days ease up by the 2nd day, and then back to normal pain. What is odd, is I just finished day 6 of this bad day episode. This is new territory for me.
My right hip, leg, and foot hurt so bad, even with the max. pain meds in me, plus 4-6 Advil being thrown into the mix.
I am suppose to leave for Charleston Saturday morning, right now, the thought of a 3 1/2 hour drive makes me cringe. Already told my daughter there, that I was having a bad period, and that I would not be able to do much walking about. She's a good girl, she told me she wasn't worried about, and that I didn't have to do anything that I wasn't up to. She just wants to see her parents.
I've got to take it easy tommorw, somehow, so that I can make the trip easier. But so much is going on, so many loose ends, and endless requests from people needing my help.
I fantasize sometimes about renting a small cabin in the NC mtns, easy drive from where I live, and have an entire week of no obligations, no cell phone, no computer, etc. And just chill out.
I will be seeing another doctor soon enough, as early as the end of the next week. But I am realistic, even see the right doctor isn't going to mean instant results or relief, but at least it will be a positive step, and something to hope for.
It is not my style to be real aggressive in getting things done, I am more of the calm, cool, and collect kind of guy, I find that sugar gets your further than vinegar. And I have the knack for endless patience. I am just one person, not especially special at that, and doctors and clinics, etc, have loads of "me's" to deal with. I will speak up for myself when I need to, but I don't like fusses and scenes, again, not my style. Some would say I am too passive for my own good, but they really don't know how I tick inside.
I am big on "acceptance" and have little tolerance for the "blame game" that some dwell on (not thinking of a single person here or anywhere, just a general remark). And I never feel "cursed", or singled out, or "why did this happen to me". Life is life, its how you deal with the cards you are dealt with, that makes the difference.
Hopefully, I will be getting some better answers and solutions soon. In July, I will cross the two year mark of serious chronic pain, when this journey started, I would never have believed that a person could hurt continuous for 2 years. Certainly made a believer out of me now, yet I am still here, I still function, and I am still living. It amazes me, from reading all the stories here and my own, just how resilient the human will to survive can be at times.
My best to you ,and hugs
david