Hi, I am new to this forum. I want to give a background to the chronic pain I suffer in hopes that someone may recognize and/or relate so I apologize for such a long detailed post. I am a 32 year old mother of a 7 year old and 5 year old. I have chronic low back pain which is fairly diagnosed, hip pain, and most recently joint pain in ankles, knees, elbows, hands, fingers, and toes. The joint pain comes and goes. I have learned to deal with the low back pain, but this newer joint pain on "bad days" nearly has me to tears in frustration, pain, and annoyance. It also drove me to find this forum.
Background on the low back pain: In about
around 2010 I somehow injured my back (my guess was rough housing with my children but I had chunky heavy babies and was always bending down and scooping them up back then so its possible it was already injured and became aggravated) and ended up with a bulge in my l4/l5. The bulge caused sciatic pain from my left hip, buttocks, thigh, and foot. I had numbness and tingling to my toes. I went to my doctor who ordered X-Rays, prescribed Tramadol, and referred me to a back specialist. I visited the back specialist who diagnosed it as a small herniation in the L4/L5, referred me to PT and Pain Management. I have been in pain management ever since. After about
a year or so into pain management, I had another Xray done and an MRI done. I was told the herniation was still there, and i also had arthritis in my low back, as well as disc degeneration and spinal stenosis. All in the L4/L5 S5 areas. (It also may be relevant to mention that I have scoliosis and the curvature is right at my lower back where all of the problems are.) At this point the sciatica had cooled off and I suffered more from what I always described as a feeling of somebody just placing the trunk of my body onto my hips...bone on bone pain. If I do a thorough cleaning of my house (a lot of bending and standing) it sets off my pain. If I do a lot of walking or am on my feet for 30 minutes or longer, my pain is set off. If I am sitting at my desk at work, my pain is set off. Very frustrating. At some point I started getting more pain in my hips, first the left side, then both sides. Painful to the point where I couldn't sleep on my sides w/out being in pain, which is how i normally sleep due to my back pain. 2 years into pain management and another MRI done, no changes in anything. However, I have learned to deal with the back pain. My sciatica will flare up every now and then but not like it used to. Its mostly just the constant low back and hip pain. I am on pain medication and have had several RFA nerve burns, mostly successful. I have regular bursa injections into the bursa sacs of my hips which help. At work I use a heating pad on high all day everyday. It is very discouraging at times to be in such pain from normal activities, but then to add the following to it...I just want to throw my towel in!
This year, I have developed pain in all of my joints on top of the low back and hip pain (which I call my "normal" pain). It started in my knees, when i worked out I got pain in my knees. Then I started feeling it in my ankles, my wrists, my elbows, my fingers, even my toes. There is no obvious swelling. Sometimes I think there is minor swelling in my wrists and elbows but i'm not sure. I know there aren't any knots or large lumps. My grandmother has severe RA, and when I told her of my symptoms and of my family history, my pain management doc told me to see an RA doc. I went to the "best one in town" and had all of the blood work done in addition to xrays of all joints. The RA told me it wasn't RA, that I had osteoarthritis in my low back, but there was nothing inflammatory in my blood work. He told me it was Fibromyalgia. At that point I was just so grateful for a diagnosis, I accepted it. Then I went and I did my research on Fibro and now truly do not feel that is what it is. The pain is restricted to my joints when i have a flare, I get fatigued but not to the point where I have read of the "Fibro Fog", I don't have the "pressure points", and I talked to people who knew people with it and had it, etc. and honestly my symptoms just don't match. I am very frustrated because i feel like the specialist just diagnosed me with the easiest diagnosis b/c he had ruled out RA. My pain mgmt doc wants me to see a specialist out of town, and I have yet to pursue that, but plan on it if feedback I receive supports it. I have accepted the "normal" pain i suffer in my back and hips and it is almost easier to manage because pain medicine and simply laying down help that, but days like today where I am just aching in every joint, I just feel so frustrated and helpless and tired. I feel like I am falling apart. Nothing has gone away, things have only gotten worse. Even if a diagnosis didn't mean a cure, I think I would just feel better with a diagnosis. I don't know if that sounds silly, but it would confirm for me that this is real and I'm not just some complainer suffering normal aches and pains I guess.
Thank you SO much for taking the time to read all of that. Again, I'm so sorry for how long it was. I hope it didn't sound whiny. There aren't many people that can relate to chronic pain so I am very careful who I talk to or "whine" to on my bad days (even a quick "omg i'm hurting so bad today" has to be gotten out every now and then) and I am hoping this is a supportive and informative forum because I really just don't know where to go from here.