Good morning Talon, and thanks so much for your great advice. What are other options for redress other than the Medical Board or lawsuits; is it filing a complaint with the administrator of the medical center he works out of ? I don't want to do that because there are other doctors that work out of the same medical center who have taken excellent care of me, and I don't want them to drop me from their care like a hot potato for obvious reasons.
I understand about
moving on to protect myself from emotional, psychological and financial ruin; I've had to do it numerous times, probably too many to count. I also know that I have to forgive the doctor for doing what he did, as I obey and give God the burden to repay for the wrong done and it is no longer on my shoulders to carry around. That doesn't mean I have to let the man touch or even talk to me again, however.
It is just so absolutely horrible that I am having to deal with yet ANOTHER addition to my history of being sexually abused, not to mention my extensive lifetime history of physical and psychological trauma, per Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder that I deal with daily on many fronts, plus Major Depression and Anxiety/Panic Attacks. Unless I have a doctor's appointment and I am there and feel safe, I cannot be alone (even in a grocery store) but for only very short periods of time once again, or even at home; I have to be with my husband. There's the option of hanging out with my mother-in-law when I can't be with him, as she is a very loving and compassionate person, as well as a skilled home-care nurse and has dealt with people enduring trauma. It's getting very stressful for my husband, as his job demands do not allow him to be with me for long periods of time, and HE knows that I should not be alone at the house. I won't hurt myself--that doesn't solve anything.
I am just so scared that when I am alone (especially in a store), I am going to start crying and not be able to stop, and have another panic attack and not be able to drive myself home.
When I can get to the store, I am spending way too much money to purchase anything I think we may need in one trip, so that I will not have to go back for a very long time...and being permanently physically and mentally disabled, I don't have that kind of money.
I am just holding on until I can see my therapist sometime next week (couldn't get hold of her yesterday), and I know she will help me sort things out.
Right now I just concentrate on being here with people like you online, who are so great and such a God-send, and also enjoying the beautiful sunny days, the birds and squirrels, and the sunsets. My husband is very supportive and loving, and keeps me on solid ground mentally with his ability to think abstractly when my mind wants to just wig out.
Have a great day, Talon, and a wonderful weekend.
--Camylou