rehash of outdated post nerve damage and other damage from trama

i wanted to post this again for me and others and new people who may not have gotten to post

me my hands i cant feel typing pressure cant feel the keys

i cant feel my wifes silky hair or the cats i used to break glasses till i learned to workaround it

why? it started as a child i would hold the wagon wheels got second degree burns almost got parents arrested till they figured it out

fell into a couple campfires microwave water accidents

early on most was gone my sis locked me out and was making faces through the window so i punched her through the glass

its more of a curse than good i miss being able to feel and experience stuff

i have to wear fingerless gloves the texture of steering wheel annoys me

i have had to have people tell me when crap happens when i was younger and able to work on cars people would freak i said what they said look i had nice gash in a finger

my hands have so many scars one janitor job we used razor floor scrapers about a long as a finger

one time trying to switch blades it snapped i felt pressure so i looked

i cut and nicked my bone i though cool spread look bone close lol yes im sick and need help

so i washed it good got the bleeding to slow the i shoved in some neosporin and super glued it shut(that job locked us in at night no other choice)


then wow me and fire a place i lived we spent the day trimming treas and stuff big pile maybe to much gas

and i forgot my gas trail to it ooops not thinking i walked and just threw a match lol dohhhh

whooosh lucky i worked with fire in one of my jobs so i closed mouth and eyes tight crossed arms dropped backwards

1st degree on face second on arms and hands

now when my arms tan i get spots like freckles

and what really sucks my facial hair wont grow long i can grow mustache goatee but i cant grow more than an short gotee no long ones and i cant grow a beard and the left side by the mouth wont grow a good line so right side nice line from goatee to mustache other side crap lol

hey i was always wild and rough and now i pay

i was working on a tv hit the tube blue lights sparks didnt feel but my arm went numb

may sound bragging or happy no but humor and looking back that way helps not to think so much on the i cants

i was born with hypersensitivity my ears taste smell used to be hands man music indescribable what you hear takes you away help with my pain

i have to drink distilled or reverse osmosis water too much taste in faucet water

food im addicted to sugar and sweets hard to break that one plus thats add symptom too

and the flavors i always add spices to my food but smells o man perfume baths give severe headaches smoking migraines and sick and so on

yea its sad this gen and most 20s and up

wont know or learn this

Marley Lennon all the greats and there wisdom

is only left to us in quotes that nobody will search for or read

i sit all day while wife is working music and finding old quotes

my type of migraine i can sometimes crank it and it just goes away

i use it allot and nature to help my pain

i like old some new i love instrumental jan hammer did Miami vice i believe without looking hanse zimmer

tears of the sun and others

enya 80s rock

my dad raised me on classical and old radio orsin wells and others

a friend of his had a room with wall to wall racks of casset tapes of different stuff

he took me to see him allot

trans Siberian ochastra Boston symphony

they just dont teach share and it all gets forgotten or they dont want to hear that stuff

i have pages of quotes and tv lines i like

schools and parents dont teach much anymore most every class that was in my school are now gone

im only 40 but man you feel allot older with how fast they throw it away allot like Vegas Vegas blows up historical casinos hotels yearly

that and the way and code i live by with the life i have lived i cant even name a age i feel

times my wife calls me a grouchy old fart hey happy to be one look at depression stress suicide homicide all that today compared to 80s i liked it in my teens big bag phones that didnt work were the cell phones of then

the net just starting and slow and people talked omg talked whats that you mean text no talk lol

and on and on you know the list i just try to hide from just a short local update and wont watch any other news i get to ticked off but you still see it daily i thought technology was supposed to improve life not make it worse!!

i focus on the sec of life every one counts fill it with joy not stress parks drives nice ways to just ignore whats going on in life and by ignoring less stress and filled with fun and beauty my area o a drive beautiful with car music