when will this stop?? Will I ever know?? MY AGE IS NOT ME!!!

Vickie and Rocckyd thank you so much and yall are right I completely understand now why people are so against me not going to the clinic! I had not even thought about it that way thank you so much I was just so hyped up on the thought of not having to hurt anymore that I was being blind to other things like going to the hospital which I was actually just there Saturday night. I started having pains as if I was in LABOR ALL OVER AGAIN!! I was trying so hard not to scream so I wouldn't wake up my children. I wasn't hurting too bad Saturday morning since I had found something to help with the pain so I was actually able to have alone time with my husband which it has been about 2 months since we was last able due do to EXTREME tenderness all inside and on my cervix. Which is the reason why I love my gyno dr and will continue to go if he allows me I'm trying to fight the drug test now and seeing if I had maybe taken something over the counter or ate something that day that may have made a false positive show up. I know what I take and am completely honest with my husband and friends about what all I take and know that the ONLY things that should have showed up was thc and Hydrocodone!!!


I started seeing him in August, right after I had my son. I have never had a NON PAINFUL pelvic exam in my life! They have always hurt ever since I can remember! but back to the story after alone time I got really bloated and felt a lot of pressure on my back which became painful sharp stabbing/cramping feeling (the sharp stabbing back pain is pretty persistent in my life) and we had went to my mother in laws that day to visit. We was there for about 3 to 4 hours the pain just kept getting worse when we was there. they decided to walk up to my father in laws grave to see his new head stone, its right across the road up a little hill which I thought the walk would help loosen up the muscle in my hips. we came home when I was walking around trying to give my daughter a bath and look through the dryer and baskets (I am unable to put the clothes up so usually everyone has their own basket I can only manage to sort the clothes out once every 3 weeks) for clothes finally was able to lay down for a few hours without getting up and down at 9... The "labor" started at exactly 11:11

It felt as though all my organs was bearing down on my cervix and slowly ripping their way through! which is how it felt when my son was being born (I had to have 28 stitches on my cervix) going into my right hip, back then traveling down the back of my leg and was being stabbed in the bend of my knee! I couldn't bare putting any weight onto my right leg where it sent a sharp pain into my hip like it was broken!!! Tried to walk around, went to my mother in laws to take a hot bath and soak in Epsom salt, tried ibuprofen but nothing was helping! ever since the ablation I have had problems, everytime I pee I have to make it come out I cant just relax! finally I broke down and went to the hospital even though the nurse told me that with that drug test I couldn't get any pain meds again for a year, but something was badly wrong...


I get put into a room with a dang ambulance bed so it felt like I was laying on a plastic table it hurt so badly!!! I sat in a chair and propped up my feet on the bed for about 3 hours. but for the total of 10 hours I couldn't lay down what so ever I did take a hour nap before the dr just walked in and I completely sounded like a FOOL. I was lost on what to say or why I was there and NOTHING I said made sense I know but he did see I was in pain. He had me on diladid which did help me so much but with how I was so tired from it being 5 am and only having a hour of sleep. I still wasn't making sense at all and let them do a ct scan when I didn't need one. I kept apologizing when I realized I hadn't told them everything but the dr I had only came in one time and wasn't really asking me questions at all just said whats happening and then walked out he did keep watching out the glass door instead of looking at me so he may not have heard everything either.

at 8 am it was shift change and the 2nd dr I had was amazing!! He asked questions and did help me along with putting my story together (still hadn't slept any at the medicine they gave me every 1 to 2 hours had me so messed up but completely pain free while I was!!) He had a Ultrasound ordered where they found a lot of cysts on both my left and right ovary along with one inside my left ovary. It did make a unusual noise not how they have sound every other time I had one more of a heart beat sound but not my heart beat and more pause time in between. the Ultrasound just flared me up the nurse I had seemed like she was new and was always having to be paged I tried my nurse button 12 times in 30 minutes and she never answered or came on the com to tell me anything. so the dr was able to come back to do a pelvic exam and she still forgot my pain meds I was suppose to have gotten a hour ago so I was hurting bad already they made me lay on a upside down sits bath I thought I was dieing I was trying my best to hold my body up and the plastic spectulum was MURDER... as soon as it was out I grabbed the sits bath to move it and the nurse made me put it back thank god the dr told her I didn't have to stay on it but even when he pressed with his hands I just screamed and my muscles twitched bad finally he it was over and they went ahead and gave me a full 2 mg of diladid instead of splitting it up so torture ended for a bit. He said there may be a chance I have cervical cancer bc of the high risk growth on my cervix not being checked in 9 months now or its ovarian cysts. One amazing blessing was he even wrote me a script of Percocet 10's! So I am able to manage this horrible pain in my cervix and leg I just pray it ends soon!!


Also The lump on my right hip is where 2 different muscles have been joined together by collagen?? one muscle is suppose to relax while I'm walking but is being pulled instead hence causing the severe pain when I try to walk on my right leg. Has anyone ever heard of this? or know if this pain can truly be caused my cysts or cancer? he said the lump in my back is the same thing but other drs have told me it is a fatty tumor in my back. I have to go to my pcp immediately and see about being sent for testing on that spot and to look into my ovaries. so this month is SUPER BUSY for me. I have my pcp, neurologist, psychiatrist, PMD, along with my mother in law having a biopsy june 2nd and Both my children have physicals... I pray to god he gives me strength to make it through and to be able to drive. Oh yeah and Rocckyd I actually do travel further distances for a few of my drs like my neuro is a hour south of me while my gyno is a hour west of me PMD is about 40 mins southeast so I do travel far for my drs its the only way to get real help only bad thing is my PMD is the only one in my state besides traveling 5 hours which is something I can not handle what so ever especially when I would have to do it monthly. I am seeing some positive things so far so I'm hoping that I will have answers and HELP this month especially with me seeing all these drs one of them is bound to help me although I do still NEED to find a gastro so I'm gonna call my insurance tomorrow and get that set up.


I am still praying everyday that god helps me through this and helps my mother in law as well... It is a lot with me still trying to find out what is wrong with me and still help my mother in law and call all her drs and all that. But if that's what it takes to make her get help then so be it I just pray for extra strength to get us through. We are loosing my car this month. Luckily they are letting us plead hardship so they wont be sueing us its just my car is used and everything is messing up on it and its MAJOR things too and its only been a year plus since I have had it. I became disabled after my son so I am useless when it comes to bringing in money right now and cant afford gas to go to all my drs and my families as well, quart of oil every other day, insurance, and car payment... and my husbands truck is messing up so we have no choice but to let it go back only bad part is trying to find rides to all my drs My mother in law will not let me use her vehicle what so ever bc her insurance wont allow it... I tried talking to her about adding me to insurance so I can drive with her to drs for me her and the kids but says insurance will not allow her too unless I live there so its gonna be really hard trying to find a ride to all these appointments this month especially when my mother in law is the only person I know to help me but its getting too hard for her to drive bc of her nerves and eye sight...


I tried to talk to her about changing insurances bc my insurance does allow a driver to be added that doesn't live in the household but also on full coverage it does cover a driver that does not live in the household as long as its only sort term aka borrowing your car that day and all that. and others who can help cant get their vehicle up here and are too far for my husband to take me there and drop us all off so I'm just stuck on how I can pull off all these appointments this month I have 2 to 3 appoinments a week. but rocckyd you are right situations, pains and times like these do make us into some strong women. I just gotta hang in there with my head held high!!! Thanks for all the support sorry all my replies are like books lol I just have a lot to say all the time!! I have been putting each symptom into my memo app on phone to make sure I have everything down to tell my dr I will make a final copy a day before my appointments to have them organized and not sounding sporadic and crazy lol and have a separate memo of all meds I take even over the counter ones as well so I can make sure everything is exact to a T

Richard I hope I find doctors as great as yours!! But where I'm at if you fail for thc on a drug screen they won't give you any medication what so ever not even non narcotic. Well at my first pain management that's what they told me. But I do still have a lot of time to find one.


The neurologist was the most waisted 1 hour trip ever!! He walks in and has me walk and talk for about 10 minutes which killed my back and after I kept telling him it was hurting and he just said keep walking and kept typing on his computer then he finally let me sit down and explained to me how he could tell that just by walking back and forth in a little room that I don't have a neurological disorder and that he won't do any further testing bc it will be a wait of his time!!!


I was shocked and kept telling him how is there nothing wrong with me!! He just kept telling me things that I have already done and tried to do and when I started explaining to him what all the Dr's have found out about me his only reply was that he didn't see it in his computer so there is no proof to support my statements!! like I would lie about something like that! He doesn't see my home life and how I live either and when I have my spasm attacks I'm usually at home or when I'm up moving around for a long time. I just couldn't believe it so now to find a new neurologist and pray he helps me.


This doctor also doesn't believe in prescribing pain meds to chronic pain patients that pain meds are only meant for short term use... and that doctors are making people worse bc it makes them more sensitive to pain and messes up there bodies... also that the drug pharmacy are trying to get pain meds out of PM soon and basically said that chronic pain people don't need the meds!!! He has no clue how BAD we can hurt and obviously never experienced pain before!!! He was just absolutely horrible. And I have to find a new PCP! My PCP is the one who sent me to him a second time!! Plus my PCP refuses to give me anything or to help me get my lyrica and skelaxin and prescribed me meds I have already been on and tried that DIDN'T work!!!! I wanna scream so bad but I gotta keep calm and pra I get help!!


Thanks for that support!! And god bless

If my Pain Doctor had told me that I couldn't use Marijuana,I wouldn't be.

Being in Pain Management when you suffer Chronic Pain is critical to me.

I'll be 55 on July 1.

What you are experiencing is what Vickie & I have been telling people for several years, welcome to the new world of treatment of chronic pain. Its only going to get worse too. Many states already consider treating CP with a total holistic approach, meaning no medications. The news is full of what they are calling the epidemic of rxing pain medication. This is not aimed at the drugs on the street. The days of being rx'd pain meds is going to be next to impossible unless you have something like cancer. People with cancer are feeling the effect at the new way of being cared for. We will be seeing fewerPM drs too. Already drs are getting out of PM & changing fields, they don't like all the red tape & being under the microscope by people that have no hands on knowledge.

They have always been rigid with young people simply because taking any medication long term will cause tolerance issues. Then its either go higher on the dose or switch medications something no dr is comfortable with. The big fear is having a narcotic that will continue to work for the person at a dosage that is not lethal.

Since Lyrica helped you so much which is also a medication used frequently by people with Fibro you may want to consider seeing a rheummie. I had mentioned to you previously to check out the Fibro forum here at HW. I am not surprised at all on the visit to the neurologist. If you were having migraines that would have been the dr to see but I have yet to ever see a neurologist be of much help except in that area. I am speaking from a personal view & from a professional stand point.

Take care.

Hi Fkd- I really feel for you. I know what appointments like that feel like! They are like a punch in the gut. We go to these doctors and share our deepest pains with them, our vulnerability, and then to be dismissed so quickly... it hurts.

I had a wonderful neurologist for 15 years who treated me for chronic migraines. I also have an autoimmune disease, and he understood that this made it challenging to find medications that would not conflict with my AI meds. But he was kind and caring, and found a way to do it.

He retired and I got scheduled with another neuro. He told me he reviewed my records and said basically I can't help you, you are on too many medications (not even pain meds, but meds for AI disease). He spent 15 minutes with me.

His colleague was able to treat me for 15 years, and nothing changed in terms of my medications. And yet, this new guy was unable to help me. I call pure BS on that.

So anyway, I hope you can keep your spirits up and keep working to find someone who can work with you. I believe it takes a doctor who is WILLING to work with someone... that is the key. It can be very hard to find these types.... but I hope you will be able to. It is so vital- we need doctors who will try to help us, even if we have complex and challenging medical problems.

My rheumatologist actually enjoys the intellectual challenge of dealing with complex problems - so he is not put off by patients like me. He enjoys it! He has been the best doctor I've ever had... and I don't know if I would still be here if it weren't for him. Even when he doesn't have all the answers, he never gives up on me. If only all doctors could have such a mindset.

Best wishes to you!!!

Don't give up. I had my only child when I was 27 he had to have surgery immediately, for hernias he had and he was jaundiced. We managed, then two months later there goes my gallbladder and appendix, both infected quite bad .So I was unable to to hold my baby boy and squeeze him like I would have without an operation.Years later I find out they left metel staples in me that are uncomfortable. But they suggest leaving them in. Now my little love of my life is older than you. Here I am with a whole new set of problems .
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