Posted 10/20/2018 4:11 PM (GMT 0)
Mike:
My immense intensity on the subject of prednisone/corticosteroid use and secondary adrenal insufficiency is because of the devestating effects both have had on my health and life.
Life will never be the same as I once knew it. My passion in directing to you to a endocrinologist with Pituitary speciality is in hoping to save you from my fate. Mine is not a coveted position. It is sad beyond belief.
I hear you in expressing a desire for relief from your pain . . . You would prefer death to unbearable pain. I share your sentiments. I am on Palliative Care with an explicit advanced directive. I am tired. Bone tired. No more medical interventions.
I had a near death experience when I suffered the intestinal perforation. The experience was transformative. I did not want to return to the world of the living. Wherever I was - a transitional space between Heaven and earth - was comforting and peaceful. God/Higher Power had other plans. I was given three directives, guidance for directing my life in returning to earth. There is not a day that I do not give through to the near death experience and the directives I was given by God/Higher Power. I have no fear of death. Loss of health has significantly eroded my quality of life. Care and comfort is the basis of my medical care.
The total body lain rhat accompanies adrenal insufficiency is owing to cortisol’s role as the body’s primary anti-inflammatory reagent. Cortisol is a life-essential hormone. Cortisol is needed at a cellular level by every cell in the body. Hormones are far more than estrogen and testosterone. Hormones, at their most basic, are highly influential chemical messengers that relay to the organs and body systems how they are to regulate and maintain function. Hormones are the operating software for the hardware that is the physical body.
The body is an large amalgamation of connective and soft tissue, bones and joints. Low or absent cortisol will be experienced as excruciating whole body pain because the body is, in large measure, connective and soft tissue,
bones and joints. I know and have experienced the pain of low/absent cortisol. And I sense that you know and have experienced the pain of low cortisol. It is all consuming pain. Death is contemplated simply as a means of desperation for relief.
Your consultation with an endocrinologist should include discussion of your pain. A Pituitary endocrinologist WILL understand the nature of your pain. I have never been denied pain control since diagnosis. Never. After years of being minimized by the clog-wheel mechanics of medical care, what I have experienced is much needed validation and humanity by medical providers.
Like you, I had no clear options other then corticosteroids to tame the inflictions of my body over the years that I took prednisolone. Prednisolone was my miracle drug. It was my golden elixir. For 15 + years, prednisolone and I were paired. But I was not prepared for the collateral damage that prednisolone left in its wake. My internal body has been ravaged by the effects of corticosteroids. I want to spare you my unfortunate state. My fate is that I want to spare you in consulting with a Pituitary endocrinologist and having a more mindful approach to your use of prednisone.
Corticosteroids are silently “eating away” at your internal body. Pac Man characters. My incomplete list:
A. Steroid induced type 2 diabetes, insulin dependent.
B. Expressive intestinal perforation, sepsis, permanent ileostomy (an ostomy pouch with poop that sits on my abdomen). My large intestine unzipped like the zipper of a rain jacket due to tissue thinning effects of steroids. I was hospitalized for 56 days.
C. Immune system suppression. A simple cold or flu “bug” can result in a hospital admissions. Steroids render the immune system weak and underpowered.
D. Avascular necrosis of my hips and jaw. Steroids cause tiny fat emboli, which can get “stuck” in the smaller vascular capillaries that nourish the hip and shoulder (in particular). Necrosis of bone ensues.
E. Osteoporosis. DEXA T score of 3 standard deviations from the mean. Vertebral compression fractures.
F. Steroid induced narrow angle glaucoma, loss of peripheral vision.
I will stop here. You get the drift. The collateral damage of long term corticosteroids does not make for an engaging life. My body is no longer my friend. Palliative Care does its best to keep me comfortable but cannot ease the reality of all that has been lost.
Your meeting with an endocrinologist should be done with an openness to help navigate your use of prednisone to balance quality of life in the present without undermining quality of life in the days to come. Be open about your pain and explicit that your pain be addressed as part of the plan of care. I think you will find much sensitivity to where you are and to your needs moving forward.
Karen