Now What

Ok heres the problem as quick as I can explain.

I never took drugs I started having anxiety attacks 10 years ago and I was on a few meds but they made me lifeless and I stopped taking them altogether and just dealt with the anxiety. I have been diagnosed with Adult ADD and I am 44 years old happily married and own a business

This past april I was playing Basketball and ruptured a disk in my back and a piece went into my nerve. The gave me percocet for the pain I was in.

If anyone here knew me I am mean, I can't finish things, I curse a lot and I have troublefocusing always going from one thing to another and never sleep over 4 hours.

After a month or so the pain in my back decreased I started to slowly walk again and I did schedual surgury. But as I healed and started going back to work and outof the house My wife, Mother, Workers all started noticing that I no longer cursed and things that used to upset me now I just let go and dealt with them without the yelling.

After a few months I was off Percocet and the anger returned. But whenever I took a percocet everything was great and I could focuse again. As an example I have a retail store and a Big internet company. We get about 400 emails a day normally I can answer 10 at a time and just move to something else but on percocet a 2.5 mil tab (I cut a 5 in half) I amswered in one sitting 240 emails. The following week I did the same thing.

I got so excited that I saw a Psych hopeing to finally cure what I had because I finally saw how normal people lived and not only myself but my family and friends like me as well.

I am on Straterra but nothing worked like Percocet and no Dr will perscribe them for me I am signing up for one of those Buy your Pills overseas I did not have a Percocet for almost a week I am not with drawing and I only took 1 5mg pill a day (Cut in 1/2 took 2.5 and then 2 hours later the other 1/2) I only took them when I really had to concentrate on work or I was going out with my family.

I don't drink and until I hurt my back I never even took a asprin (My anxiety attacks happened a lot whenever I had to take meds I always thought I was having an allegic reaction and I could not breath)

So Now what do I do. I still have the back problem I tore my ACL in my knee and am going for surgury next week and my Dr only percribes me Vicodin which I dont take. I can deal with the pain the percocet is formy Brain.

Has anyone tried those out of country drug places? Someone give me a little advice here

You need to see a pain specialist  with the fed gov't changes and all those media hyped stories about drug overdoses etc. many GP are unwilling to prescribe     Also the perkiness you fill with percodan could be a side-effect of sorts  my best friend takes hydrocodone(vicodin,lortab,norco) and gets hyperelated feeling when I was using it i became sleepy.  I have had fibro for more than 20 yrs  and a good pain MD can help

I don't get a euphoric reaction what I like about it is the ability to concentrate. Everyone tellsmeto get on Ritlin but as far as I know thats addictuve as well any drug is addictive if you like it enough and while I take it to work normally I never take it at all only when I know I am going to have to sit in front of my computer for 3-4 hours.

Then I take it because it makes mesit in front of the computer and work as a benifit I am also a lot nicer and if you ever knew me normally I am the meanest SOB on earth.

I did investigate and this does have an effect on brain chemistry and Straterra was actually created from the idea of percocet cut effect that part of the brain so it will help the adult ADD

I thank you all for your comments and believe me I am more than aware of the addiction problem this presents. I will tell you this as I used the percocet I made sure to stay off it days at a time and never used it unless I had to do some intense work.

I did use it since april and at 1st I was taking a 5mg pill every hour or so because of the ruptured back and the nerve it damage made my left leg feel like it was on fire. Even with all that Percocet I still could not sleep for a few weeks.

Anyway I wasoff percoet for a few days in August and went through horrible withdraws and I went back on it. Last week I ran out of pills and my Dr wont precribe anymore. But this time because I made sure to get off them whenever I could I had no symptons...Not a one.

I look at it this way I would rather risk becoming an addict than putting my family and friends through my mood swings and anger that I have done the past 20 years.

My wife is aware of the risk she works as a medical secretary and even she agrees that the change in me is worth it. If anyone here seen house well I am in sort of the same situation. What I do on the computer and for my business no one else can do and I can't teach people what would sell and what does not. Me and my partner own one of the largest music parts companies worldwide. How can I teach a person outof over 500,000 parts what would sell whats the pricing how it should be presented to our customers? I go by feeling.

I know all of you are concerned and I thank you for it. But I have been upfront with my wife, Kids, Family and business partner and my workers so everyone knows what I am doing and the reasons why and they all 100% agree that the change is so dramatic that it's worth the risk and everyone is pitching in to help

In fact I set it up with my Buisness partner that if I can get the pills he would controll it and he will give me 1 yes ONE 5mg pill a day and thats all. So I am making sure to take steps to protect myself.

Mezz,
I know how you feel, but you must be very careful with opiates. It is almost impossible to not become addicted to these powerful drugs! I have legitimate chronic back pain, and am now dependent on oxycodone. With opiate abuse becoming such a huge issue, the DEA is really cracking down on abuse. If someone is caught with meds that aren't theirs or prescribed/used incorrectly they face federal charges. I know we all sound like we are just bi*****g at you but we aren't. Many people here know the problem of depending on a stupid pill to function normally. I started out taking 5mg 2-3 times a daya few times a week. I now take 10mg 2-4 times a day plus 20mg (oxycontin) at night. If I don't take the stuff every 8 hours or so I get all icky feeling. Opiates really seduce people, and know how to gain control over your life. I am begging that you seriously think about this before going any further with it. Opiates are really a bad way to control your mood. you also have to be VERY careful with oversea meds. The US drug companies are FDA regulated so we know what is in the meds we take. Anything you get overseas is not as strictly regulated by their respective government.

You also said at one point that you were taking a pill every hour? If these were percs. be careful, they also contain apap (acetaminophen). The content is usually either 325mg or 500mg. 4 grams of apap is toxic, and 2-3 grams daily repeatedly can also dangerous to ones liver.

I have a link to a forum I'd like to post so you can see what this can lead to, but I'm not sure if this would violate TOS... Can someone let me know if this is OK?

take care.