to moderators:

Im not sure what entirely can be discussed but I feel that emotional pain is just as strong/equal to our physical pain.do you think you could make/create a forum topic for that so that people like myself that don't have friends really,or anyone to talk to that decide to talk in forums for support also have a place to turn to and lean on and to be able to discuss their emotional pain as well?because that requires support and healing just as much.and im sure many people can agree that you need to let that out also to be healthy and heal.for I have been told many times its not healthy to keep your feelings,etc bottled up inside.we all need healthy support no matter what the problem and there is no safer,healthier place to do just that,than here for I have already gave praise about finding your site and joining and finding other people to talk to that are not allowed to criticize,judge,or ridicule anyone.I can't tell you all what it means to find people you can relate to and talk with that go through the same things when you feel like there is no one that cares or understands.I am extremely compassionate and love to help people.and I feel it would benefit many to have a forum for just that.unless you already have one,then that's my mistake.

Thanks,just checking..didn't want to "step on toes"?.my question I guess has more to do with um hhmm I guess like I have very stressful life even aside from pain and health issues like everyday life.and a lot of stress at that partly to do with everything I've been through in my life(lot of trauma that would shock most) and even present situations as well as mental health issues.I go to counseling.I am the most loving nice person you could know but they are going to start me on meds for mixed personality plus I am adhd.so combined it makes life and situations and people in general hard for me to deal with and understand a lot.and causes a lot of mistrust,being paranoid about people like oh well why are they doing that or they are all looking at me weird kinda thing when usually it ends up being nothing.needless to say that it creates a very stressful life living like that and it takes the right "good people to explain things to me a lot or help me to see thing from different way and when there are certain ways people know how to calm you down when your angry or start flippn out .and I have only 5 people in my life because people say they will always be there and then turn their back because they think your stupid for having problems or don't have time for you.its very annoying.I've cut everyonee out of my life except for those 5 special people.they have been through a lot and still stay by my side no matter how many times my moods have shifted and gotten angry with them.I count my blessings for them.it takes a lot to learn special ways and techniques to deal with someone with mixed personality/mood problems.and my counselor is a blessing.he's very nice and I find he does thhe same things with explaining situations and people for me and he has that way of putting me in good mood and sheeding light when things look dark or cloudy.and I feel he is right and once they start me on the meds(3 wks!) it will level out my moods so I can think with a straight level mood and then we will be able to begin discussing issues and work on the problems.I only wish I would have gone yrs ago so I would have known all this and would have had maybe a little more productive life in that area.but I stay to myself and choose not to have friends for all those reasons.I have 1 friend,my bf,the wife and husband I rent from(who have "unofficially"adopted me as their own daughter,and my counselor.they are the only people that I have to talk to or remotely trust to talk to about stuff in any way.so I don't know,im losing where I was going with all this I got distracted.but I guess for once im trying to reach out to any friendly ears willing to listen.I know everyone here has been through so much and I have been through a long unfortunate life of torture.I write forever and ever.and I write poetry( a lot)to express myself because I have such a hard time talking about my feelings or stuff in my life and I only ever get it out in writing.I don't know.maybe I should just write a book instead of being on here and boring everyone or taking up space with my neverending thoughts.but anyway just forget it cuz I lost track of myself

Thanks gramps.its difficult trying to explain to some people when u have mental probs.I just went to an intelligence profile appt this morn as soon as I rolled out of bed.its because I applied for state dis. And soc.sec.so they sent me there..well I had to explain myself and my ways to this nice lady about my mixed pers. And my violent mood swings.needless I didn't get to far.I started out ok and then she was asking about my past which is all bad and not pleasant to discuss whhen u been thru so much trauma.and I ended up crying.and she was,I think,blown away by everything I have gone thru health and personal,so much that she said she needed to have a 2nd appt w me to discuss more of all of it.she said"there's so much history and stuff you been thru in your past that I really feel would help you for me to put in report.and then I had to do cogn.skill tests.really annoying when I had to wake up early and go without any coffee,had a headache,and way to much info and questions.I actually felt pretty stupid as my answer was I don't know many times to simple questions.and pics of different shapes and designs...my head still hurts..lol...so I will be going 2 time to talk and give more lengthy details of my history.not looking foward.