For Big Lucy

PAlady--thanks for the post. Yeah, haven't been around for awhile b/c I give myself "breaks" from getting too caught up in CP/illness/diseases, etc., if that's possible at all; sometimes I just don't want to talk about it/read about it/discuss it. Now, if I can just figure out getting away from the physical part of it some days, now that would be the ticket--maybe I'll write a book! I have today off from work and feeling very fatigued, tired and overwhelmed so I decided to cruz HW to read the empathy. Still working FT, can't say it's not without its challenges, have to be very regimented, plenty of sleep, rest, etc. All the advice I can give you about going back to work FT is that you have to be very disciplined about giving yourself what you need without guilt. For instance, one day a week I do absolutely nothing--I rest--I don't do chores, don't talk to anyone, just rest--sometimes it's a little challenging b/c I think we are socially programed, I blame talk shows--to "take on the day!" you know, that live life to the fullest dogma crap we're are all fed. As much as I understand I have limits, that propaganda plays in my head and I need to keep on reminding myself that I'm doing the best I can for ME. Oh yeah, my house could be cleaner, I sleep approx. 10 hours a night and I'm starting to do more things that only give me pleasure, it all centers me to be able to work FT. Could life be better, absolutely, but, it could be worse.

I'll check out the beach party, but I won't stay long, I'm kinda a vampire, the sun bothers me, hate sand and laying out bores me. Now if you ever have a nighttime BBQ w/host bar, karaoke, and dancing till dawn, count me in. Hugs.