Pain intolerable-so is meds,heat,cold,,pain clinics,help me endorphenes help me

Crying right now because of pain. just cannot take it anymore. too tired fighting it. Y can't I just take endorphenes by mouth or inhale it or put it on my skin? I must escape this chronic pain thats just gotten worse over the last 35 years! I'm just out of ideas. Lost in hell and no where to turn Reaching out right now. Usually I can cope but verge of giving up screw prayer too DOn't know where to turn any more If there was an ocean near here in Minnesota, I would get in the warm water and start swimming out and never come back. Thats how I want to go. In the ocean that is warm and salty. Fish food Heck My astrological sign I just realized is cancer-The crab. only difference is ? Just lost, The only thing i have been able to accomplish today since 2:30 am is smoke & drink coffee and now it is 7:42. I'm feeling like a waste of space-utterly useless. What would you do if you were me?
Disabled married woman of 52,boared,crabby,lazy,good-fpr-nothing. Just spent. Know what I mean?
.Useless in Minn.,
knitwit

I hear you! I have cried tons and prayed someone would take these headaches away that I have. i have been laying in bed for two months with not a brigth moment. So I talk on my laptop, have my newspaper beside me, tv, book etc, I do some exercises to release some mucsles and pray. And when I go to bed I am thankful that I got thru the day and pray that tomorrow will be just a little bit better and that my day will come for some relief.
I am thankful for little things I accomplish in the day.
Try to find some little things to find a postive in your day. Talk to your doctor. Perhaps a pain management dr. would help. Hang in there. we all know this is tough. Do you have any support people to talk with, husband, friend, sibling??

Come back and tell us how you are doing.

Take care

its now 1 pm, and Im still hurting. Pissed off is more like it. Because actually I caused the increased pain myself. I sat at my desk and chatted and surfed the internet for 6 hours and my limit it on hour at the most at a time without resting a lease a half hour in between not sitting anywhere. I really learned a huge lesson belleive me.Never again.Never ever for more then an hour at the very most without resting inbetween.

Wow - I've sure as heck been where you are! And I even know what you mean about sitting at the computer/causing it yourself. I learned from a friend recently who has suffered with arthritis since teen years (he's 60 now, a poverty lawyer)... that "listen to your body" does not just mean listen to it when you've abused it and you're in pain! It means "know" your body - know what you will "pay for" and how to avoid it.

I know that "it will get better" may not be true, but for me, I've had some good doctors who have found a cocktail of meds that seem to work. Am I pain-free? No. But it's manageable and I can enjoy life again.

In the down times, I pull out all the stops...I use every single coping mechanism I possibly can, so I NEVER have to feel the way you describe again (I sure have before)

And ...I know I'll sound like your mother but ... cigarettes and coffee on a bad pain day? Dude!