Posted 4/17/2009 8:22 PM (GMT 0)
Ok I will try and make this as brief as possible w/ out leaving any important information out - I was diagnosed w/ Endometriosis 6+ yrs ago & after many failed atttempts to control the disease (Which cause chronic pelvic pain ranging from minimal pain to severe pain) I was refered by by OBGYN to a Pain Dorctor - Well I have been seeing him for 5+ yrs and I have not seen a huge change in my quality of life,in fact I am probably in worst shap then when I 1st saw him the only major change has been the amount of narcotics and the mgs increasing that I take on a daily basis -Well i had an episode last week which landed me in the ER because I was not able to get the pain under control - Well the ER DR's took one look at all the meds I was on & the 1st thing out thir mouths was that was the problem - because my symptoms of my disease so closely mimic the same symptoms of narcotic withdrawals (Severe stomach cramping, Nausea,Anxiety & the list goes on) It is hard to determine what is from my disease or because I drop the amount of MGS I am taking of my meds = well regretfully they gave me a shot of IV Dilauduid and sent me packing - the shot didnt really help took away some of the cramping and the symptoms but really was not enough to fully take me out of whatever I was in - so here is the list od meds I was on but have not taken since Sunday the 12th so 5days ago :
Ms Contin (The 12hr Release) 3x a day
Oxycondone 5mg 6per day
Well I go to my pain doc on Mon the 12th & I have seen him for 6yrs and as great as he is really feel he may play by the rule of "There is NO MONEY IN THE FINDING THE CURE" I tried to explain to him that I just feel like I am taking more & more drug but have less then desired results & I end up walking out with a script for:
50 4mg Dilaudid pills
and I had not taken anything since my weekend shot in the ER so to say the least I was feeling pretty crumy - so I take a pill and found my self in no less of crap then a couple hrs before so I take 2 and nothing, I was feeling less crappy but no where up to par- so after taking about 8 4mg tabs in one day - I figured I have just reached the point of no return - I have never snored,shot up bought from 3rd parties, I have always been on the up & up - so to wrap this up my ? is how hard will self detoxing be - I have not been on the Ms Contion or Oxycodone for 5 day s and for the last two days I have been cutting the 4mg dilaudid into 4 pieces and only taking 4mgs a day roughly taking one little piece at a time ever 4 or so hrs, I have felt some effects of the withdrawl but have not really been in a lot of pain my mood has been the only drastic change of lately,just felt down in the dumps, nothing huge just like blah -I have had a little of chills/sweats but not too bad -I also should mention I take:
45mgs of Remoron
Which is a tetracyclic antidepressant which increase the amount of norepinephrine and serotonin in the brain. I take it every night which compleatly knocks me out so that helps with alot of the mood issues of the withdrawl - I will not be self detoxing myself off this because thats alot more complicated - so I am tackeling one thing at a time - who knows I may take it for the rest of my life
So heres my ? = does anyone know how bad or what I should expect with my withdrawl -is it even possiable for me to get through this w/o medical professionals, I know I should talk to my DR & I am sure there are other meds I can do on to ease the withdrawl but everything I have read is that its just replacing one bad substance for another - Any Information would be greatly appreciated