Thank you i`m still with the land of the living but someday want out like a lot of people .
I`m not sure where i was the last time i was in this topic but in April i had surgery to remove the septum in my nose and the lining of my nose where the cancer was .
This i now regret as all i have had is one problem after another .The surgeon had repaired the septum with bone cartliage and skin grafting and within a couple of weeks there were problems .to cut the story short the grafting had died and was rotten ( explained the terrible smell i was experiencing .The gp out here had no answers but to put me on numerous courses of antibiotics ( mind you he never once looked inside to see why the thing was smelling ) in the end i went back and saw the surgeon who had to remove the grafting in his rooms ( never again will i go through that ) .
It seems my nose will never be the same oh i can smell alright infact just a tad too good the family hate me now as i have banned all deoderants and cleaning products from the house .I just can cope with the smells and the pain they cause even though the oncologist told me my smell will be considerably decreased well i`m stilll waiting .
I have no immunity in the nose now and have constant infections .
Nose bleeds well they are worse than before the oncologists tells me it`s because my nose can`t produce the normal moisture like a nose should so to get around that i have to spray normal saline up it every twenty minutes but even that is still not enough .It`s going to be an interesting summer considering i live in a very hot dry area with little prostects of rain .
I am on Morphine twice a day and endone for the pain but most days even that doesn`t touch it .The surgeon tells me it`s nerve damage thats now causing it as a result from the surgery .
Most of all i am so depressed as to the look of it all the surgeon told me he would repair it if it did collapse due to not having a septum ( the middle part of the nose inside ) when i asked him last visit he told me he will reapir it when it totally collapses i`m not impressed one bit as it has collapsed considerably ( one little girl who had down syndrome told me my nose was ugly she was telling the truth ).
When i saw the oncologist a couple of weeks ago he said that the surgery to be done was extensive and it had to be done at a certain time all right for him to say it`s not on his face .
I`m due to see the orthopedic surgeon in a week or so as the arthritis in my back has been so bad the collapsing bones are squaching the discs causing them to press on the nerve which runs down my right leg .On several occassions i have fallen due to the problems this has been causing .With all this i just want out i have had enough ..
I do not get into the forum that much anymore just sitting causes so much pain but then trying to stand up causes even more .I feel as though i`m 100 yrs old .I wanted my life back and all i see is it being taken away bit by bit .
Thank you Whitedeard for your concern and your email i will have to remember to drop in when i am home as all i seem to do is travel to see drs some are 500km away and the others are 900km away with fortnighly trips to see one or the other it`s been hard .
Snowflake
