In Pain all the time now....

 

 

Hi, I am new here and wanted to introduce myself...I am Michelle and I live in Nashville, Tn.  I have been in severe pain for so much of my adult life that I cannot remember the last time I had fun...or smiled,laughed,had a day without pain.

So, why am I here?  I need friends.  Friends that understand how I feel and will NEVER judge me.  I can't do much without being in pain.  I am always using a walker now and eventually it will be a wheelchair. 

 

I recently had a fusion surgery 1 year ago.  I had such high hopes for the surgery and I have been so upset at the outcome.  Now I am one of those people that will always be in pain.  I really don't want to be this way, I am so depressed every day.  It seems that no matter what medications I take I get hardly any relief.  I take Oxycontin 80mg. 3 times a day and Oxycodone 30 mg. for the seeping pain...

 

I didn't want to take ANY medications, and I didn't for years..just Advil.  But about 3 years ago I had an incident. I was walking up my stairs and my left leg went KABLOOEY... aFTER that happened I had the numness and prickly feeling all the time.  The Pain Doctor I have been seeing for almost 5 years, then it was for procedures, gives me my pain medications.  He has always tried to get me to take something and I always said NO...until 3 yrs. ago when that happened.

 

My husband left me last year, right after my surgery, and my 3 kids live with him.  I miss the kids, not the ex.  I am all alone here.  I can't drive very often due to the pain so I am a hermit...

 

What can I do?  I need help and don't know how to get it... My medications aren't working very good now so I am having to talk to the Doc on my next visit to the PM office., he will tell me that I am on the highest drug that he can give me and I'll leave in tears...

 

How can I approach him?

 

Thank You for listening.  I know that I am not the worst person in pain, but today I sure feel like it.

 

Michelle

You're very welcome Michelle,
everyone here deals with some form of chronic pain and we all have our days where we feel we've hit rock bottom, its a great place to get it all of your chest! If you're seeing pain management doctors then I'd just be really honest about how you're not coping. If you're not then get a referral to a pain management clinic. A lot of us here also take an anti-depressant to help us cope, or a muscle relaxant to help with spasms or anti inflammatories all in conjunction with the straight pain meds. But you really need to speak to a doctor about it all. Write down all your symptoms, when is the pain worse? what are you capable of doing? So your doctor gets the full picture.
There are much wiser souls than me on this site and I'm sure they'll be answering you soon, but welcome to HW, Golitho