Frances,
I wish you lived closer I'd say just come and stay here for awhile, even though you'd have to sleep on a pretty old couch, and deal with a house that's falling apart because I can't afford to make the needed repairs. The one thing I did right was at least pay off the mortgage or I'd be out on the street, too. Or likely in a room some relative loaned me for awhile.
So I'm not in your shoes completely, but close, and I think I get it. I've been there, and in some ways still am, in a pretty desperate place, and have found I've had to sort of beg for help from a few relatives. A couple of stepped up to the plate, or I wouldn't be hanging on. Do you have anyone you can stay with, lean on for awhile? You may have to actually ask someone outright for help, and oh, I know how hard that is when one has been independent. But that job still may be a possibility for you - don't give up on that.
Seriously - is there anyone you can lean on - even someone you'd prefer not to ask, but maybe you're at the point you just have to? A relative, a friend?
PaLady
p.s. I hope I'm not intruding or causing you more discomfort by posting this. Please let me know if I am and I'll delete this! I just know how tough it is, and that so much of what you're going through is from some beyond "bad luck" with this economy and the housing market. You've worked so hard and are so close with this new potential opportunity.....just know I'm thinking of you and in your corner!
Post Edited (PAlady) : 8/18/2010 12:59:35 PM (GMT-6)