Waiting

After the mix up at the Orthopedic surgeon's office--they scheduled me for the incorrect office location--now I have to wait until next Friday to see the surgeon.

This pain stuff sure involves a whole lot of waiting, and I'm sure I don't know the half of it.

I've been out of work since last December. If I lived alone I would have been in serious trouble right now. As it is I am merely draining my father's income.

I'd apply for disability, since it takes so long to get any benefit from it, but I just don't know if I should yet. I feel like so much is uncertain. I know I can't work now, and I doubt I'll be able to for a while--even if I do get surgery. This pain is relentless, and it's affecting me mentally as well. Almost feel like I need to go back on my anxiety medication. (Already take an anti-depressant! lol)

I just haven't actually had a doctor tell me yet 'this is going to last for life'. I sorta feel like I'm on a turn table being sent out to various things with no real destination. I was really hoping to get some more insightful comments from the orthopedic surgeon, but now I have to wait yet again.

Plus the medication my PCP has me on isn't really helping much. I'm done taking the Naproxen, unless he wants to prescribe me an anti acid because this stuff is making me throw up stomach acid constantly. I feel like I have heartburn all day, no matter how much darn food I eat with it, before it, after it, whatever! OTC anti-inflammatory drugs don't do that to me, so maybe I can just take them.

I just wish I could get some clear answers. I hope I get them this coming Friday, but at this point I am not very hopeful. I just want to know if I will be able to get any pain relief, if I can go back to school, if I can go back to work!! These are important questions, and it's just so agonizing--in more ways than one!!--to have to wait around for these things.

Sorry, just had to vent for a bit. Thanks. :)

Thanks Cogito.

I just feel like I have waited enough. I have always felt behind. It took me longer to get my GED, my license, and to get to college. Now that I finally have all those things i have this to deal with and I have to wait all over again. I'm not so much depressed as frustrated with it, but I hope to find something to help out.

I really don't think there is anything I can do online right now. I have no qualifications and I only really get online in spurts right now since I can't sit up to use my PC for very long. But I have a laptop, its just not that great. lol!

But if it comes down to it, I would be interested in online classes. I just need to find out if its necessary or not yet. Same with applying for any kind of disability. If it comes down to it I guess I'll have to try for that too. It's just the waiting that kills me. :P